oh such times

my bald, funny, darlin boy is all i think abt when i'm alone.
when i'm not, it takes quite a lot to push him OUT of my mind to actually concentrate on the present.

this is depressin.
the worst part is, i think he's all TOO busy doin his routines and drills to actually think of me.
this is depressin.
i repeat,
this is depressin. ):

well today was the last day of orientation, where i actually did a bit of INTERACTION wid my newbie classmates.
and here's the major shock,
i played BASKETBALL. can u believe a time where u actually saw me PLAY that damn game?
while i din really like it if u thought this time would haf been different.
i passed instead of dribble. threw air shots when it was suppose to go INTO the net. and i made my usual stupid faces when i was tryin to catch the humongous ball.
i'll say again.
basketball is the one game i can NEVER play. i'm soooo noobish.
and i hate lookin retarded.
call it ego. i have lots, no, LOADS of it.

"free ego up for grabs!"

we also had the jammin night in the air conditioned (thank god) hall. however since all of 'em J1s were dancin the mass dance in the foyer b4 that, the hall reeked of sweat.
but that did not hinder the atmosphere and i must say it was ALMOST crazy. haha.
everyone was dancin their most violent and guys were looking stupid with their awkward moves. but that made up the fun, and atmosphere was intensly insane for one astonishing moment. :D

i think T16 is kind of a nice class. and for the first time in my 2nd year in YJC, i actually haf more guys than girls in my class. haha.
great improvement frm last year where there was only 4 guys and 15 girls.
but 137, again, will alwaya be remembered. i miss those ppl! ((:

i dun think i'll forget this crazy night at YJC. *grins

and yes, i'm recallin all that to get my head away frm all the thoughts of calvin lee xian jing.

in the aft i said that i din miss him that much,
now i say!
i miss him so damn friggin hell MUCH.

i miss him. *sigh