the point where x cuts y

my back is really hurting.
and the sharp pain strikes at the most unexpected moments...
when i'm buyin FOOD for example.
its a sign isn't it?
when i play volleyball.
its a sign isn't it?
when i SIT DOWN.
its a sign isn't it?
when i do my HOMEWORK!
its a sign isn't it?!

i duno why i even haf to go for volleyball nowadays.
a supposed reserve but where's the play? /:
yea, i really got the hint so might as well just tell me straight u dun need me on the court and let me spend my evenings free and easy without the hastle of stayin back JUST for the sake of pickin, passin, rollin, and kickin those bloody blue white and yellow balls.
the only times i got to dig spike and set was durin warm up session for bloody fuck's sake.
now i question the purpose of my presence.

now think of the irony where my presence was required for track trainins and i never showed up.
if and when volleyball closes down, NEXT STOP *ding dong*, netball.

i wait for the inevitable.

i haf a art and gp to complete.
i need to eat my dinner
i haf to feed my dog,
bathe myself
and rot away.

tell me life's worth living for.
even in darkest moments like such.
and when an arguement with a loved one,
is all it takes to tear the happiness down.
paradox proves the theory of love and hate.
when it happens, moments as such,
tell me life's worth livin for.

i miss KC.
i'm on a hysterical high.
cut me lose and help me help you make life a better place.

1 more day.