prejudice and pride

these past weeks haf been a torment.
(quoted unauthorised from 'pride and prejudice' and edited-from months to weeks, to suit my current place in life's unpredictable story)
*rolls eyes
that was so drama.

ok back to my topic in mind.
you know past months (say from feb to march to april) when calv wasn't arnd, i actually could tolerate his absence. not that i would gladly show him the door, but i ouldn't miss him overly much cause i guess i just got use to him being in camp and all.

but lately, i just can't seem to stop missin him. WHY *cries desperately

and i'm not sayin that i dun miss him at other times, i DO, its just that now, he's in SINGAPORE, adn i've seen him just last week's end, and i'm missing him now like i've never seen him in a MONTH. (remembers the month of May and shudders dramatically).

oh, i miss him so. )':

and i'm sick of studyin, though i never did much in the first place.
so far, i've managed to plant myself at my study desk and sit there for an hour. if it gets any longer, i'll drift.
and worst is, i can't remember wad i've learnt, so i find it all a friggin waste of TIME!

i've come to a point in my pathetic life when i realise, i'm so sick with education.
and life for me hasn't even started proper!!
and u now, i actually enjoy learnin geog, only thing is, i only like the physical part.
but guess wad? human geog-population, takes up compulsory weightage in the up comin blocks.
and i've tried, so VERY EASILY to delay the time of which i haf to start on population,
but now the time has come for me to START, and i've yet the intention of doin so.

someone pls drill it into my head that i can't retain a second time.
i can't wait for the day that i'm free of all the choices i haf to make in life.
and that'll be...
when i'm 65.. 70? ( or lets say when it's time to die)
count down with me will you?

this week alone, i've already gone to the gym, TWICE, just to get away from studies. i WOULD go there every day of the week if i could make it happen, but that would just make me the military madam i so very want to avoid.
adn to tell u the truth, i feel like goin tot he gym, TMR.
that makes it THREE times a week, just like the old days when i looked like the military madam who had eevrythin goin for me. sports wise that is.

thank the lordie i've got enuff common sense to stop myself frm addin on any unwanted weight. i've even decreased the amount just so the muscles won't grow.
geez.
mayb i'll just stick with cardio. that way i can release stress, take up time, AND sweat and burn at the same time!

someone save me frm myself, i need to study.
oh yea... i'm back to being stuck at functions, help? haha
MR. CHUA~!!!! *roars in desperation.

and there is these 2 HORNY cats f**kin every night!
their mews of ecstasy is drivin me nuts, its damn irritatin. can't they just control themselves until the end of next week? no i think that's too much to ask frm them, how bout a day? ha.

saturday night is all i'm waitin for.
(saturday night fever tune lightens up my mood..)*sings to the tune in my head