You have bewitched me
body and soul,
and I love, I love,
I love you.

oh, i'm goin Korea frm 4-11 december! (((:

and dun kimchi me.
i'll kimchi ur ass.

i'll get u guys (general) stuff when i find somethin worth getting.
in the mean time, dun harp over ur lack.
just drown in ur jealousy. HAHA! (:

i miss him.
dun tell me to shuddup abt it cause
it really sucks and i HAVE to rant.
i'd scream if i want to. jus give me a hill and plant me at the top
and i'll scream my heart out for u to see.
cannot rite?
then bugger off and let me yak away.
i miss him so bad...
here's how u could feel the way i do:
-not see ur love for 3 weeks.
-and not talk(call) to him/her for a PERIOD of 1.5 weeks.
-not talk/msg him for the remainin 1.5 weeks.

i want to see u shrivel up right before my eyes.

paris hilton's song "the stars are blind" is still ok if u dun watch the music video.
once u do, its a total turn off.
its like a porn video gone wrong.
and i KNOW porn videos.
she should just become a small breasted porn star.
(oh right, she is one.)
maybe that way, asian women will gain more appeal
with our small A, B, C (average sizes) sized breasts.
which are by the way, most of the time, ORIGINAL and would eventually sag in time.
dun give that disgusted look.( refers to guys)
u shld start gettin embaressed over a shrivelled penis in years to come.

i actually like jessica simpson's song "public affair" i duno y,
but i think its hilarious. haha.
but her video "these boots are made for walkin" is just another sad excuse for her to advertise her booty. talk about a PUN. haha!

okok wad is this?!
a music commentary?

i miss calvin... SOBS!
its not that i'm so dependant on him. i'm not.
i'm the last person that should be suspected of over dependency.
i'm still a feminist at heart
and will glare at any chauvinistic pig that i can get my hands on.
high 5 to all IJ girls out there.
kick em' assholes who ever think that girls are second class beings.

only
Eight days more...
but it feels like forever.
if i dun get over this depressin issue, i'll start cryin myself to sleep. ):
oh right, i forgot i was suppose to be fossilising. /:

my hip gyration has come to an abrupt halt. just last night i was blasted away by the news announced, none other by the man himself, that he will not be contactin me for the remainin week until he returns.
why?
his stupid phone spoilt on him.
and he can't possibly continuously use his fren's phone, and even if he wanted, he can't cause he's goin OUT into the wilderness to encounter death and its perils.

i for one would just like to kick him in the ass.

anyway, to take my mind off the DISTRACTIONS that i had to deal with in relation to him, i found consolence in other minute things, with various degrees of importance like:
princess, who looks adorable ( to me- if u idiots refuse to fork in some sweet comment abt her) sittin on the cushion beside my bed, the minute i got home and stepped into my room.

and i've also tried enforcing some fear into my impenetratable armour of complacence, that i attained frm Blocks, by puttin THIS:
which seems to be causin no surmountable reaction in my brain that could even spark, for the slightest bit, some fear into myself.
i'm in danger of crumblin into a pile of dust to be swept away by some lone sweeper.
i could not even be worthy of existing!!! * shouts drmatically to my room's ceiling

on the other hand, it could all be better than going crazy over my lack of competency to complete my studyin/revision plans for promos.
for that, i pat myself on the back.

i am no longer happy with the countdown. it just highlights the despair that i live through each day not being able to have the slighest contact with calv.
but....

NINE

it wouldn't hurt. haha (:

p.s.: check out the link that i placed under recommended "rejected" shld be familiar to some ppl. while others may be able to identify this video to the quotes that i haf extracted frm it durin my delirious/crazy moments. "i am a ba-na-na" and "this is fun!".
alright go check it out. ha.

what happens when one does 10km cyclin and 8 km runnin in 2 days?
a whole body full of ache.
and thats what u get when ching lin gets hold of a "free-something" offer ( a new gym membership that my mum applied for me allowed me to gym for free before 4 pm)
i'm killin myself tryin to satisfy.

Ten days...

the "you think u can dance" segment mentioned that not anyone can gyrate their hips.
well i just proved them wrong.
i look like a clown, but i'm doin it. woots!
ten days ten days!

Hady won... *shrugs. oh well.
not to be racist, but enough malays already la.
and its quite obvious that all the malays are gangin up to vote for "their own kind"
so seriously, who's the real racists?

anyway anyway, not here to create tension.

woots!

Eleven days! (((: he he. HAHAHA!

my rabbit peed on me. /:
some territorial mark or somethin. HA

well at least i'm sought after as a precious possesion by some other male other than calv.
WHICH is more than most guys can put claim on.
sadly.

speaks a lot abt my appeal. HAHAHA

i always thought that i ate a lot whenever i'm with calv or my frens durng the weekends. BUT apparently it works with my parents as well.
since sat i'm been gorging down truckloads of food from, chapati, jackfruits to mooncake.
and if i had any qualms abt controllin my diet, it has just gone down down DOWN the drain.

even now i munch on green skinned lotus filled mooncake.
and crave for the traditional crusted one.

now i await calv's return for his promised haagen-dazs ice cream.and dun give me the accusin look as if i asked for it.
he wants to treat me! so there. and i even humbly rejected it,
but he insisted, so who am i reject such a comely offer huh? hahaha

ok geog test was a hilarious disaster.
the only comfort i take in is that i managed to do the 9m question ont he roles of states in economic developement quite ok.
i practically regurgitated the notes which is really not wad one shld do.. so we shall await our doom (or rather mine).
ironically the night before, i was anticipating a not bad pass for myself. i was convincing myself that hey, this is a time to boost ur morale and get urself hyped up for promos.
never happened.
so uh...
maths test on wed.
we'll see what results can be conjurred up frm THAT.

TWELVE DAYS!!! *rubs hands excitedly. ((((:
(you'll see me jigglin and smilin nonsensically nxt week. look out!)

i made a new revelation bout my dad, and its funny that it took me so long to understand him. haha.
but i'm def seein him in a new light.

i use to think he was some old fashioned hilly billy, but apaprently his views are pretty modern and open. Probably not on ALL subjects but def on quite a few subjects.
namely religion, and how its being accepted or practised nowadays, since that was what we were talkin abt just a while ago.

he talked abt life and how religion is never ur ticket arnd.
its like if one was too deeply involved in their religion, it wuld be like walkin down a road where there's a hole right in the middle of the path. at a fork u haf a choice to turn towards another route, but if u juz go stright with ur beliefs, it'll be like stupidly walking into a ditch.

he also mentioned that the world is so diversed. everyone's got their own beliefs, culture and preferances. if ur just gona stick to ur own belief, and be completely blinded by it and devouted to it, and not respect other religions and cultures, just because u belief ur own notions are the one and only, then it just shows how narrow u are.
u may believe in one belief, but one always has to be receptive to other cultures.
especially in a period and time like our era.
one can't go, 'oh i'm a buddist and because i'm that, i'll NEVER step into a church'. or vice versa.
its about respect. if ur there, u accept and respect and understand. no one's askin u to belief. just accept.
and i found it cool that my dad had all these notions cause i always thought he had a hang man's noose kind of concept towards the traditional ways of life and was really strict abt followin them. apparently not! (:
i'm enlightened.
and if u could see his conviction! hahaha, now that was something.
first time i'd seen him speakin on a subject so enthusiastically other than me needing to study for a better future.
don't they all do that? parents i mean. sometimes i think it so cliche. and ironic. since there they are preachin bout the goodness that studies bring, then shouldn't they haf done it for themselves before?
*shrugs
the ironies of parenthood.

ok i've got geog test tmr and wad am i my muttering away.
toodles.

THIRTEEN MORE DAYS TILL HE RETURNS
just short of 2 week... i can do this... but OH NO, i can't feel my toes! whats this? layers of sediments... and is that cement?!....

i will now head over to novena, untied square, to eat subway and study.
feel free to spy on me.

bye bye.

i sprained my right hand's pinky and it has swelled to a deformed, immeasurable size.
its currently all bruised up and i can't even bend it without cringin in pain. /:
just my luck.
what did i do to be bestowed such an honourable result u ask?
handball, pe, unprofessionalism.
enough said.
just my god damning luck.

here's how its progressed:

when i got home it had looked like this

after i attempted to massage it and get some blood circulating,
the creases started getting really red and clotted... S:

i awoke frm my nap to this and its remained since then.

i knew calv's absence has been affecting my mood, but This.. THIS is too drastic.

besides that i'm gettin very emotional. either its pms (PRE-menstral symptoms) or just side effects of his temporary abandonment.
one telling evidence would be me cryin when i watched smallville. SMALLVILLE for goodnesss sake.
*rollseyes.

just saw the news of steve irwin's daughter make the last speech for her father's death memorial on ET tonight.
so sad...
(i earlier felt not much sympathy or sadness on hearin the death of Irwin, but the speech was really heart wrenching. and she is still so young yet said it with such confidence. i applaude her. (:)

skipping that, i think my lit is deteriorating AND i can't seem to change my writing. its messy, and illegible. BOTH facts (pertaining to my writing) can be vouched by many many ppl.
my lit... i'm getting paranoid abt not scorin my expected grade.
STUDY!!!!

and my heart is breakin away bit by bit everyday that calv is away in Brunei.
sniffs.
i haven heard frm him since sunday. haven msged him since tues.
and i feel like i haven made contact with him in a decade. ):
the next 2 more weekends will be dreadful knowing that he's not even somewhere in singapore servin his blardy ns.
he's allt he way in brunei for goodness sake.
feeding leeches and getting lost in the jungle on purpose.
where's the sense in that?
when u get lost, ur lost! give it UP already!
and he was taught how to kill a bird for survival, while some killed rabbits *horrified look.

i'm now goin to subject myself to my old health diet.
meaning :
-no snickers.
- one bubble tea treat per week if need be. ( every tues b4 gym) ( i usually drink arnd 3 every week) /:
- jacobs, less salt, low fat, crackers to be brought and consumed should hunger pangs ever strike.
- strictly follow a 3 meals a day plan takin note of the quatity intake.
( no not the one small circle of rice kind of quantity, i'm not that psycho)
- finally fruits BEFORE EVERY meal.

ok. for now, that shld be fine. at least i haven contained myself to eating after 12pm or i'll really drop dead.

now if u see me heading towards the bookshop for treats, stop me and slap me.

i suddenly remembered a sweet memory of calv and me. * moment of silence while i enjoy the bliss of the moment.
.
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.
.
.
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HAHAHA, i'm acting as if he died la, CHOI CHOI! *sputter and spits

i miss him. )))):

15 more days till he comes back.

FIFTEEN

for goodness sake. i'm probably fossilised by then. /:

WHY HASN'T
ANYONE
COMMENTED ON
HOW CUTE
PRINCESS LOOKS!!!???

-glares at everyone, Princess is my DOG u nitwits.

ok, the rest of the fotos that we took to TRY OUT the cam , and then shots taken as if he was goin on vacation at the aiport wid his family. HAHAHA

ok, that was calv playin arnd wid the cam. NOTE: my mini tatoo that he had engraved on my arm. duno wad it says, ask me. him playin with it AGAIN. tutt.
i then decided to confiscate it fmr him, before he took anymore unglamourous shots of me.

here's when i finally allowed him to catch a glimpse of his beloved. AND where he proudly shows off our first, well taken photobooth shot in OUR opinion. hahah
after that he assumed he had the liberty of getting hold of the camera again, adn he took this. at least I THINK its pretty good shot of me since i dun see my face, and that i "actually look like someone pretty" , quoted frm a previous comment that ting made on another back shot foto.
The 2 things in life that means the most to me, and of equal importance to that of my parents. (:

this was durin the ride to the airport... /:
the funny vacation like shots that only calv and me felt was treated as such.

alright. that's it. (:
damn i haf a pimple growin on cheek!

my blog template is goin crazy.

ok. here's my version of the hiroshima bomb that has exploded onto my life:

CALVIN'S GOING BRUNEI
FOR 20 DAYS.
(that's almost 3 weeks, bad enough)

when i said i hate commandos, i meant it.

anyway, we got the camera!!! woots. (:
panasonic lumix with 6 mega pixels, auto focus(MEGA optical image stabilzer), anti-shake, Leica DC lens and wide angle function, WITH a pretty big lcd screen THANK YOU~
hahaha
ok. calvin paid the bulk of it so technically its 9/10 his, for now.
BUT, since i hold storage space for it, hur hur, u know where that leads. (: here are SOME fotos, and a photobooth shot.

but i show u the photobooth one first since the rest still need resizin.

alright! (: haha.

NUMBER 5

here's the SIMPLEST design for the orientation shirt for all simpletons out there. haha.
the dove, i duno, freedom of spirit? HAHAA. other designs found in cheryl's LJ so go see go pick the fav for nxt years orientaion shirt back design.



comments on left, further designs found in
THIS LINK---> NUMBERS 1,2,3,4!
and
THIS LINK---> 6,7!
proceed forward. thank you.

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usherin was a BLAST. hear me ROAR with delirium. /:
such a waste of time, surely its the PERFECT way for one to WASTE their sats over.

i hate commandos. i HATE.

discussions and the qualities of law

oh my god.
just had a major heated discussion wid my mum on globalisation.
sheesh.
she had her views on why glob HAS to stay on, and i was tryin to tell her wad we were learnin in sch. (example Fair trade and Free trade. CAN'T help it! its stuck in my head! - image of mdm Aisha jumpin arnd animatedly) that free trade widens disparities btwn the rich and poor. yak yak yak.
she keeps insistin that ppl in developed countries enjoy they're simple life as low incomed ppl.
i juz told her that everybody, eventually wants to improve their lifestyle (SOL), even if by just a little bit.
globalisation prevents that. (or rather its appears that)
then she says its becasue of they're lousy governance.
and i said, yea, of course there are the other factors that affect such, but its because they are so far behind the global competition, it makes catchin up hard to do with the world leaders like the US.
then she brought in singapore sayin that if we did not participate actively in free trade would we still be as accomplished as we are today. (she mistook free port for free trade. /: ANYWAY)
i told her that free trade was only an example i used and that singapore got their wealth at the very beginning before free trade was really an issue.
thats when she brought in governance again. *argh!

developing countries are moving on to the quatinary and quinery industries while the developing world is still stuck at the basic primary and secondary industries with all their raw material shit. becasue of glob, developed countries manage to rise out and move further ahead of the competition while the developing world lags behind due to lack of revenue or ability to break fromthe chain as being primary producers.

so basically we were arguin 2 diff points which led me to feel so tired out cause it all was just a futile cause.
except now my mum understands the diff btwn free and fair trade.

*shrugs

Thank goodness i din bring in the roles of TNCs, or i would haf dropepd dead thinkin of diff examples to argue my point against a totally diff point that she is raising to counteract ME.

i'm blustered out. if law is this strenduous, i think i'll pass. /:
HAHA.

that's me lookin relieved over completin somethin which i shouldn't be proud of. the hair describes it allllll.... haha. crazed. art. it does that to ppl. now stop givin me that weird look.

WHY DIN ANYONE TELL ME THAT MY SHOES LOOKED WEIRD?!
(now its gona cost me some promo marks...*grumbles agitatedly)

and here's a SLIGHTLY closer, close up.
*sighs.
oh well. let's wait and see our marks then shall we? hmmm. /:
(now dun tell me how bad it is cause i KNOW it's bad. u CAN however, tell me how PERFECTLY well done my HANDS are. (: yessss, thank you thank you... )

cheerios.
and those that haf been waitin impatiently for the sale journal to be updated, u won't haf to wait very Long! soon my dears SOON. haha..

CALVIN IS NOT BACK FROM CAMP YET!!!!! *roars.
tmr... mornin... *haltingly said with asthmatic gasps in between. (no, no asthma here.)

shuffles in...

omg.
was browsin through my fotos recent and old, and and AND look at this!!!

HAHAHAHA. my god i miss the KC days, SOoooooOOooOOooOOoo much. ):
and ting ting and me are PROMinently darker cause it wasn't very long aft our 174km kayakin expedition arnd Singapore. WOOTS!

orh hor!!!! grace never wear ncc collar badge. tutt tutt.

damn. i miss those days way too much now i haf to buzz away or i'll start cryin in torrents.
*shuffles away

its a store and MORE

i'll say.
if music be the food of love,
then we're all but a tire of tone deaf lumps of flesh.

the music nowadays is not worth being fed on anyway.
seriously.
has anyone ever turned on to gold 90.5 and actually listen to the songs played?
the ppl in the past actually SANG.
which is more than most ppl these days can do.

i think singapore idol is just a no win no lose situation for ordinary ppl to get some short term fame.
think back, when was the last time Taufik Batisa (spelling?) was associated to somethin more lucrative than a 7 eleven advert?

i'll say (again).
present and future generations need some major creativity booster.
even fashion is goin back to the 50s,60s, 70s, 80s!
(i'm guilty of followin through at points)
but who ever said this was the NEW fashion this season, has GOT to get they're terms properly played out.

rest in peace, for promos will be our final destination.

3 days to bliss.

tiddle doo

came back frm sentosa today with lover boy,
and i am BURNT, lobster red.

but i like~ haha

yes played volley.
AFTER SO LONG! thank god, or its high likely my level will drop lower tahn it already was.
it has dropped byt the way. /:

and anyway i'm tired, and i thought there was charlie's angels 2 today.
turns out i'm wrong, so i'm off to pig out- sleep my life away.
pamper my rosy, sore, puckerin skin.

cheerios nincompoopISH lot.

6 days till he returns, YET again. *yawns

hysteria

today is teachers' day.
yest concert was pretty ok.
the speech was horrible.
the quater was horrible.
i miss calv and i need his comfort.

yea, that pretty much sums it up.

promos are comin and i feel so lum-beh. shit.

i'm in no mood to chit chat.
"STUDY" keeps naggin at the back of my head even thought i've decided to enjoy as much of my weekend as possible, then chiong durin the spet hol weekdays.
but i'm still feelin somethin horrible.
oh sigh.

i have to promote.
I HAVE TO!!!!
sobs.
or else, everythin, is dashed. EVERYTHING.

shit.