there is a possibility that i will finally get to learn (drumroll pls)...
taekwondo!

and guess wad?
i only gotta pay for the uni= $65

hahah! finally at long last i get to be that "wham-bang-thank you" ( no, not the obscene way u sick pigs) ma'am.

but i wonder if my body will get overly muscular if i do join it... haha. imagine it, back to ncc body!
*dead faints
HAHA, battle royale mode! hahaa *i see elvis cringing

in any case, calv WILL be at the losin end, poor guy. haha
imagine wantin to kiss me then suddenly *WHACK!*
and to think he already claims i'm strong for a girl.

he's in for some rude awakening once i'm done wid my ... er... WHITE belt. *blushes sheepishly.
i can't believe i'm about to linger with kids ranging frm ages 8-15 (both of which are the exact ages of 2 of my cousins whom are ALSO attendin the classes, 8 being the youngest and 15 being the oldest thus far. until i appear of course. HUR)

oh, and 1 of the instructor is a korean! woots.
pretty cute too ( and if calv thinks he's good lookin too, then there u haf it, he's cute. in a typical animae kinda way)

ok, that's it for excitement.
updates at a possibly, MUCH later date.
perhaps aft i come back frm Korea.

tmr, out wid calv, then sisterhood!
and then the nxt day is off off OFF to korea for me! (((:

dun kill me if i dun get u somethin frm korea, i really tried my best.
but ppl hu are def gettin it (go ahead thank the lordies,) are
1. CALVIN <3 ( a BBBIIIIGGGGGG 1 pax)
2. parents(2 pax)
3. clique (5, a possible 6 pax, haha, XY, i duno wad to make of u.)
4. breasties(2 pax)
5. calv's parents.. (n bro) (3pax)
= 14 pax.
(and possible few more to add but not listed)
oh dearie dear dear. "money fly, money go." *chants away

BUT ALAS, its all for ppl hu matter (((:.
good luck to those hu think ur one of the un named few. haha
cheerios!

i just realised that this skin might be screwed. hmmm
guess i'll haf to re figure the whole thing out.

Another day.

goodnight-

i see u noticed i changed my blog skin.

very observant.

i went pulau ubin yest to cycle!
i haf EVERY intention of tellin u how ExCITIN the trip was.
but, that'll haf to wait cause i need the assisstance of pictures, of WHICH i do not haf at hand rite now.

so for now,
you wait.

just 5 days till i leave singapore for korea.
and i hear that "WHAT?" no connection there??
"what?"
only 3G phones haf the bloody privilege?
slap la. now how am i suppose to contact my beloveds in singapore
huh huh huh????

i WOULD rant abt art, but i'm even tired of rantin.
i would discuss an atrocity i saw at pulau ubin, but i won't.
i'm tired. tired of the hols. tired of sitting. standing. outings. LIVING.

everythin is a "been there, done that" issue.
i'm sick.
just so sick of experiencin it all.

u want to meet.
ok we'll meet.
but we'll walk the same place, shop the same shops, eat the same stuff (and even if its somethin new, it really wouldn't matter), talk the same talk.

come to think of it "joy" could be rite. ( abt me being old)
i could very well be experiencing premature midlife crisis.
and guess wad, i haven even passed age 19.
how absurd. how insane. how irrational.

how true.

BUT alas, a person can never be too old to haf a boyfriend. (dear joy,)
love is only lost when ur dead and gone.
finding love is the few things in life that should be well appreciated and treasured.
a loved one may be gone but memories will stay forever more.

i miss calvin.

"happy feet" is nice.
nice nice nice. :D
and cute.
cute cute cute. :D

i think u should ALL watch "zebra marathon" or rather a zebra logo with a big word "marathon"

its a korean movie bout thi autistic man who likes zebras and chocolate cookies. his mother then trains him to be a runner and despite ppl questioning if he really likes running or is it just somethin the mother is forcing on him, the truth is that he really does love running.
he later progresses to join a marathon and hits a "sub 3" recor. that's running a total distance of 42.195km in only 2hrs 57 mins. i think it makes him the first korean amateur runner to hit sub zero let alone the first handicap who has done it.

the actor is Cho seung woo, who has also acted in the romance movie, "the classic" which has pretty good ratings too, by the way. "the classic" was directed by the same director of "my sassy girl". Though "my sassy girl" leans towards a comedy romance, "the classic" is driven towards melodrama, however both are probably on par with one another in a sense that they both achieve a beyond perfect romance story.

but just stick to watchin the zebra marathon first. i think its so endearing and heart warming. go watch go watch! (((:

now i noe y so many girls in those days were crazy over him.

i think its the tight leather pants and leather everythin else that accentuates what little bad boy aura he actually has, to make it seem as if he's one, mean, kickass, bad boy hottie (of those days). they dun have much of those kind of guys in the music industry in that era. must haf been hard to come by with the borin moral code to live up to.

anyway, made him stand out. and with the absurd thrusting of his hips, geez, must haf made them (girl fans) swoon in convulsive ecstasy.

u dun see much of the same reaction from girls these days.
i guess orgasms and spasms are a natural day occurance in the todays sexually active society.

i wonder how sexually diverted we'd all be by the time it hits the 22nd century...

the caption stated "Heh heh"

this was taken from a friend's (friendster)profile. i just found it too hilarious but i'll just keep it anonymous for privacy's sake.


damn right heh heh. hahaha.

I've never watched "the butterfly effect".
now i think i shoud. /:

i baked cookies today!
oatmeal cinnamon and chocolate chip delight! hahaha
orite, its not complete home made.
i gott he premix betty crocker version.
but still!
i added the cinnamon as an extra personal touch by the way.
so it smells good and smells BETTER.
and i added milk too.

(i duno y i keep tellin wad i added to the concoction, must be my NEED to put my mark of originality. (: haha)

my first 12 cookies got a burnt base.
the nxt batch (for calv) turned out nice.
and the last batch which has 4 of em' shaped to resemble hershey's kisses, turned out pretty nicely as well, so all in all, i shouldn't haf wasted dough by makin 12 cookies to be used as the experimental batch. //:

nxt up on my to try list....
cakes? or brownies?
wadeva. they're botht he same to me anyway.
simply DELICIOUS.

i've borrowed korean movies to watch.
wad? can i help it if i'm becomin some korean fanatic?
i realised the shows are either really funny, or really emotional.
such polarized reaction. very tirin to react to by the way.

I'll live and I'll die for you,
steal the sun from the sky for you,
words can't say wad love can do.
I'll be there for you!



In 2 days, my man becomes a true soldier with a red beret on his head.

behold,
the new and recklessly "bored with life" version improved,
CHING LIN

kill me.
i'm gona paint me nails red,
so get lost and find another job to adopt other than read this dead-to-me blog,
OR i swear, i SHALL, so help me god,
hunt u down and pinch ur nipples (guys) till u scream out in ecstatic pain,
(or in the case of girls) and shove a length of stick up a tunnel where the sun don't shine.

sorry, i just couldn't resist! (((:

and damn he (calv, NO not JJH... sigh. HAHAHA jk) only returns tmr.
fuck army and their stupid guard duties.
fuck it ALL.

"battle royale" is all the dialogue i've heard spewin out of elvis and cheryl since yest.
its some jap movie that came out in 2000.
something abt an entire classes of teens playing a game which involves killin each other to emerge the ultimate winner. situated on an island, off the coast of japan.
an attempt, or shld we say in more elaborate terms- SCHEME/policy, by the govt to reduce the population durin duno wad period of time.
i noe. sounds a tad corny, but there u have it.
elvis claims its psychologically disturbing.
and cheryl has noted a seeming unrest in his state of mind.
gore, bloodshed, and the plot, adds up to wad they would deem a good movie.

so here i am, interest ignited, ready to face what i've been told about, and wad my mind tells me would be a disappointment.

hilariously, elvis, being elvis, has made it a point to mentally rearrange the borin circumstances of life to that of the movie, in his head.
that is, to imgaine wad might happen shld the teens in the movie be his classmate. and then he marks down who would go down first.

ALAS he got bored with HIS class and moved on to mine.
gen and dawn, sadly, was predicted to be cut down and destroyed. (again according to elvis)
KEMP and I (heng ching lin) emerge the 2 leading competitors!
and since only one can become the winner... *waggles a finger, Drum rolls please...
I am deemed, THE SURVIVOR!
i'm THOROUGHLY disappointed in elvis's faith in my abilities to stay competitive.
he noted that kemp would immediately kill me at the very end. ( i guess its possible considerin his (kemp's) mental state of mind when its comes to winnin)
much kudos to gary DING for notin that i could very well seduce (cough) kemp as a trap AND THEN kill him in cold blooded murder.
i guess that could be possibe,
but why so little faith in my physical abilities to demolish the other player, and instead jump into the conclusion that i would use my womanly wiles to get my way?
how degrading. /:
i'm not very apt at flirtation OR seduction (for that matter).
i think its pretty obvious in my awkwardness while conversin with guys.

thank the lordies several boys/men stand out and are exceptional cases despite my inability, and amongst them (specifically the MEN), there is calv. HAHAHAHA

everythin ends wid him huh.

okay.
i'm takin my bow.

p.s: i've noted a change in my style of writin. that's bad... wrong time.
very wrong timin indeed...

he comes back TOMORROW!! (((:

i forgot to add that i had achieved a small miracle in life by promotin. (:
i guess small achievements make up for a whole lot of happiness.

now i can't wait to go korea and get plenty of pictures both for art and for future memories sake.
food, snow (i really hope!), and WISHFULLY prayin for nice, pinchy, rosy cheeks. i see plenty of that in all those korean actresses! (i'm so deluded /:)

besides all that, dejection goes hand in hand with my delirium over being able to spend only 2 more weekends with calv before i leave.

oh sigh.

Suhui ( classmate) left today at 2.30 AM for U.S.! slap that bitch. haha
hopefully she'll be able to get her hands on the "i <3 NY" T shirts (quite a few of us ordered her to get it!) that i find really cute in a dorkish way.

i have nothin more better to say.
excitement of the week has died and gone away upon receivin results.
now i only dread wad nxt year might bring. no. WILL.

alas my marks were better than i predicted.
esp my geog.
i thought i'd fail but i passed.
but MATHS. maths was such a disappointment.
my main promo paper saw me receivin only 47 marks. sigh.
overall saved me from disgrace. but i'm still sore abt it nonetheless.

i got first for art, now that was a Pleasant surprise.
and from a U grade (blocks) to a B(final), pretty big improvement, come on, gimme a ROUND OF APPLAUSE!

but its still to early to get all chirpy, for NXT YEAR, will be hell of a nightmare for us ALL.
art will be hectic with art history ( what?! more artists added to the insurmountable list???) and the art piece itself. maths questions to drill into my cramped up head which has reserved no space, what so ever, for any maths info. neither will there be any space given up for charity any time in the near or foreseeable future. *nods on.

then there's lit with "heart of darkness" ( i hear Sng droning on about capitalizing the title, shut up shut up!) and then there's the own wilson poems (a stack mind u. no book. papers. that tear over time. goin in sync with my mental flow of destructon of educational materials.) then the "great gatsby". added on to wad we haf now...

oh the bane of such atrocities!

i've no mood to yak any further.
now all i want is to get a job.
"step by step..." *sings the tune

oh my f**king god results are tmr pls SAVE ME.



i'm havin heart palpitations.

save me.

here are NG scenes tot hat drama. not sure if u'll appreciate them if u haven watched the drama. BUT no harm tryin rite.. (:

u noe wad i think?
i think Lee dong wook is cuter than joo ji hoon.
yea. that's wad i think *nods furiously (((:
forget the dressing ( which LDW is still better in by the way)
or the height,
or the angles of which each of can look swoon-worthy in their on way.
see here see here.
"My Gir"l really is a pretty good drama too! really :D


omg. haha. i love it too. hahha

i'm getting shivers from the impending day when we collect our results.

is it really monday???
i noe we all haf to gather at 11.30 at the audi. but how is the results gona be presented to us that way?
what would it be? slips of paper insensitively and forcibly thrown at our upturned faces that gap in horror at what might be our worst nightmare?
could that REALLY be it?

i dun want to noe.
i can't believe all this waiting and anticipating has left me feelin more isolated and afraid than i want to be.
All those ominous hints that teachers readily scatter in our direction its as if they were sowin the seeds of dread, a chore of which they merely carry out on a daily basis ( actually it probably is a daily basis thing for em'.. /: ).
fear just ignites in the bottomless pit of my gut and all but makes me want to puke my lunch out, and then puke out more remainin juices that dwell in the nooks of my stomach.

i can't take this constant hammering of the heart that stems not from excitement, nor passion, but frm the Satanic Fear of the unknown. a holocaust that could possibly wipe out all that was once worth living for.

an advancement is not wad i am seeking.
a miracle is wad i'm asking!

dun give me that
"oh dun worry la, u'll promote!" crap, or i swear i'll punch ur face.
i've got the gym workouts to substantiate. /:

"i'd give u everythin, get u anythin!....
if i had the money."

he sometimes says the funniest most endearing things.
said in a tone devoid of sarcasm,
with truckloads of passion,
and finally ending in a note
filled with dejection.

all i want to do is pinch his cheeks and croon.((((:


now who's appearin like a fool... *grumbles

"hanio hasay o" is HELLO
and
"come sa hamida" is THANK YOU

please, anymore useful phrases i could use when i get to Korea???
learnin language never was THIS fun.

i noe i'm only goin there for a week, but i'm damn excited. adrenaline is already bein pumped into my veins as i speak of such an awaited WEEK. and HOPEFULLY, the things aren't too expensive such that i won't be able to get some drama freebies!

and i need clarification:
"sah wah di kah" is hello in Thai for women, then wad is for men?
i forgot... /:

i can't WAIT for results.
yet i dread the inevitable.

Ten
more days till he returns. ( but he may be back on monday. just for that day!)(((:
actually i shouldn't be happy for i'd only see him for a few hours.
crap. i feel pissed again. /:

i was browsing through my previous posts.
found it really odd. haha (laughs in a self conscious manner)
i duno, maybe u should try readin wad u wrote a year ago, then tell me how YOU feel.
its a really funny feeling indeed!

recently, we were coerced by Salvi ( geog teacher) into writing a team proposal for a geog weather study project that we are not even welling to carry out.
so we slog to create a perfect proposal, for the single intent of seeing it mercilessly taken away from us and claimed by people that ultimately lack all sources of creative juices.
i pity these RETCHED fools.
my brain cells are all but wasted.
such precious cells that could haf been stored for further use like As nxt year
(I HAVE TO MAKE IT. if its not a hope, its a proposition that has no 2 ways to it but ONE).

calv has lost his handphone, and i deem him now, without a doubt, the most CARELESS person in the world, next to me * glances away sheepishly
and SINCE he won't be comin out this weekend, i won't be seein him for TWO whole damn weeks.
and without a handphone, communication is all but LOST. gone. FINITO!
tsk.
exaggeration i'm sure, for i will receive a call/an sms now and then.
but to last 2 weeks?
and what of nxt week when i get the shock of my life when i receive my results. what do i do then? who do i call then?
that piece of arse shit is gona pay.
BEN and JERRY'S treat it is!
THREE SCOOPS!! ( or kenny rogers meal... hmmmm)

sigh...
11 sad and Lonely days to go. )):

you haf GOT to watch the final dance scene. the climax. damn!



and here's a clearer version of the last part. sigh. nostalgia nostalgia for all that dancing that i use to dislike and dread.
makes me want to dance ballet again. /:



hot hot HOT!

STEP UP is DA BOMB!!!!!
my god i loved it. love love love it. *sighs

channing was hot, of course.
and the dance moves... TO DIE FOR.

it was that good it actually ignited an interest for dancing in calv.
yea. i noe. it was THAT good.
ahhhh.. *drools.

haha. the moment he (tatum) came out, i started droolin.
calv had to reach over to wipe it away for me.
frm then on my eyes were literally GLUED to the screen.
and so was calv's.

damn it rocks.
DAMN IT ROCKS!
i dun mind watchin it again. and again. and again. and AGAIN! ((((((:

oh and did u noe there's a little mermaid 2?
nott hose little follow ups that disney does after every big movie.
those are just minor sequels which are just waste of film, and really shouldn't exist in the first place.
this mermaid 2 i think is ariel's and eric's daughter. casue she had eric's colouring.
its called "little mermaid II- return to the ocean"
or return somethin. can't remember.

its not in the movies, dun be silly.
its on dvds and vcds i think.
i saw it at the video store anyway.

a tribute to the past:

i suddenly realised that BK was the only fastfood that KCNCC ( katong convent NCC company) truly enjoyed visitin.
what with the coupons and all. (yea we were a cheapskate lot.haha)
the ambience.
even when we got sick of the food, we still went back.
even studyin for the Os was done partially there as well, with none other than the familiar companions of kcncc.

sometimes i wonder why i always opt for BK as a fastfood choice despite the fries being too little,the veggies being none too fresh, and the service hardly meeting expectations.
now i noe its because it never fails to bring back fond memories of yester years, that has been engraved deeply into my memory.
i guess, i really hope by age 70, i'll still remember how excitedly we responded to the availability of BK coupons that entitled us a cheaper meal, no matter how low the price can be brought down with just the flash of ur student pass.

its hilarious how all of us managed to find peace and satisfaction in the company of each other after a long day at sch or trainin.
even when it was just minutes ago, we were STILL in the company of one another.
we never were sick of one another's presence.
we still had LOADS to yak about.
we all had each other.
and that was really all that we needed.

i guess thats why i never felt lonely durin those days, when i was w/o a boyfren.
( not that i'm sayin calv is a rebound that came from being seperated frm my best companions, i love him all the same, and liked him for no real reason right from the start other than feelin he was close to perfect. OK! mush mush~ HAHA!)

what i'm sayin is that,
friendships won't change,
only we do.
but never will i ever forget wad was borne from being part of the KCNCC company.
*sniffs and tears dramatically.
i miss them u noe? even if i've seen them jus a week ago. /:

funny how we all still laugh the way we do over and with one another despite all our diff environments. Environments that had eventually moulded us to who we are now.
despite the diff subjects, that we find easier to talk about, are contrary to those arnd us.

i guess this is really wad true friendship really is about.
i heart them all!

haha, " my lovely sam soon" is damn funny. haha
i noe its a bit late for me to be watchin it, especially when its been aired ages ago, but yea.

here's more:

wad u see is only on the floor. there's MORE in the bags. HAHA
cousins doin tradin.

halloweeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnn!

here are the PICS:that's jun (cousin) and me. younger one on far left, is Rong. (:
i'm dressed as a dead soldier. slit at the throat./:
IT WAS A CLEAN CUT~! :P

outside one of the houses that we visited.

yang heng ( another cousin)

got distracted by the mini coop on the way
"ROAR!!!"
the attack of the HAIRY SPIDER!
the cutest superman ever!
jack-jack! (((: so ADORABLE!!!
this girl was pretty cool. my cousin asked her if he
could take a foto with her, all she answered was "ok-" and
gave a stoned look. to match her outfit.
see how crowded it IS!
fellow comrade!

ok, for now, i can't seem to upload anymore fotos.
bloggers way of tellin me enough?
haha. nxt post nxt post!