the "million-TH" mile.

2007-05-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

I HAVE MOVED.
*tears
i miss this place already. *blubbers

2007-05-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

shit, i can't upload fotos!

this could be the last straw before i'm FORCED to shift to my livejournal account.

hmmm... maybe i should.

2007-05-11T20:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm
so just because i dun update my blog,
u all go on a boycott and dun tag on my board la?

you good.
watch out.

Return by Ching Lin

2007-05-06T19:14:00.000+08:00

my heart takes flight
up and down, over around
it flies...
my heart cannot hide.
it feels his presence
it knows what's coming.
my strings of conscience
tightens.
in 33 hours
my heart precociously falters,
as the sight of the flight tower
approaches.
it bumps,
thumps,
and lands.
into his carrier arms,
it finds itself
Ensconced.

2007-05-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

blogger is mad.
anyway,
i want calvin to sing michael buble's "Everything" with guitar accompaniment!

Everything-

you're a falling star
You're the getaway car
you're the line in the sand when i go too far
you're the swimming pool on an august day
you're the perfect thing to say

and you play it coy
but it's kind of cute
when u smile at me, you know exactly what you do
baby, don't pretend that you don't know it's true
'cause you can see it when i look at you

and in this crazt life
and through these crazy times
it's you, it's you
ya make me sing
your every line
your every word
your everything

you're a carousel
you're a wishing well
and you light me up when u ring my bell
you're a mystery
you're from outerspace
you're every minute of my every day.

And i can't belive that i'm your man
and i get to kiss ya baby just because i can
whatever comes our way
we'll see it through
'cause you know that's what our love can do.

'cause in this cray life
and through these crazy times
it's you, it's you
ya make me sing
your every line
your every word
you're everything

la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la

and in this crazy life
and through these crazy times
it's you, it's you
ya make me sing
your every line your every word
you're everything

your every song
and i sing along
'cause you're my everything

((:
2.5 days!
(he's comin back on tues instead of wed remember? :D)

cause we were so young!

2007-05-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

HAHA, wad dig ups! (year 2005 album)

2007-05-02T17:40:00.000+08:00

ah! if i go, then comin back at 10 plus.

cannot cannot then..
must stay home and rot
with my pile of collected teachers' out casted goods.

2007-05-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

today, i kept smelling whiffs of excrement. and pee.
and it wasn't frm me, u assholes.
(pun unintended, but since u saw the link, then yea its a pun then)
if it was ON me i wouldn't be talkin about it would i?

now i sit before my com contemplatin a choice of whether to join my mum and aunties for dinner to celebrate my aunt's 5_something birthday.
a mini one.
i hope its a buffet... /:

contemplating cause i stil haf CLB compo to do (CLB stands for B syllabus chinese, a simplified version of ur normal version. its not SO simplified ok! its still hard.. *disgruntled)
and i haf a geog essay outline to do.

SO.

but since i worked SO hard yest night, completin my art mock up piece, my geog essay, and a lit essay this mornin, i shld give myself a WELL DESERVED break for completin such a load in the smal amount of time given.
yes, yes, i hear some distant clapping, thank you lone soul, i'm ever appreciative of u.

so i hear that calvin may be comin back on a tuesday mornin instead of a wednesday.
what's that?
a day EARLIER??

why...
that makes it...

SIX DAYS!!!!
:D

i'm pretty much a free thinker cum atheist cum agnostic, but...
HALLELUJAH! (((:

2007-05-01T14:59:00.000+08:00

"Women are strange, he concluded, in choosing sleep or death to tell a man of their love when he could least hear them.", Catherine Lim, Following the Wrong God Home.

in this case, we're seperated by a whole land mass generally known as Central Asia.

i want to tell him ilovehim.

counting: EIGHT

p.s: by the way, u really shld check that book out Following the Wrong God Home. written in Singapore's context, with A LOT of names changed (prob for the safety of the writer since she retrospectively castigates the spore govt. willingly cause she's malaysian. HA. u haf to blame it on her malaysian jealousy despite her havin live her later life in spore. not much of a mr spencer in her i suppose-- spencer cause he admires MM LEE to the very strands on his white balding head!) . but really nice. poignant.

2007-04-30T17:02:00.000+08:00

NINE

Ne-ah ha ha ha ha! (:

2007-04-30T16:44:00.000+08:00

The first dog that i had, Sydney<3

What is left of my aunt's brood. (:
(with one more missin female retriever, Helen..)

2007-04-29T18:35:00.000+08:00

2007-04-29T16:54:00.000+08:00

shit i'm gettin emotional to boot.

so it isn't only angst and a temper.

soon i'll go through an emotional overdrive!

2007-04-28T17:35:00.000+08:00

i feel like art is taking a strain on my patience.

the work load is like I------------------------I (this much)
and time is only I-I ( that much)

the teachers keep sayin .. u finish this by end of august, then got time to do ur other subs.
like hell there's time!
if i spent more time on my other subs from august onwards, i'd be screwin up my future!
its as if they readily assume the only subjects i'm interested in is art.
they assume that our dream job is to be an artist to create our own form of movement, like
de stijl or fauvism, or something random like them.
they assume that since they like art so much so would i
(or rather "we" the art students of YJ).

then they say," got long weekend right?
GOOD
then can do more work!"
has it ever occurred to them that EVERY OTHER teacher would be sayin the EXACT same thing and loading us with THEIR share of throat choking work that WILL squeeze the life out of living??
seriously,
i dun see how not havin a life of their own makes them liable
of suppressing ours to be half its potential!

alas for the sight of an A grade we are subjected to their willful commands and wishes.

degraded to servitude!

well well well.

WELL.

ah,
11 days!!!

it must be an auspicious day cause i feel much happier as the day of his return approaches!
such a change in attitude deserves some approval. ((:

2007-04-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

i now understand the lure behind owning a livejournal account.

but i shall be obstinate, and hold my ground!

blogger SHALL prevail!

for now...

i miss him.. sobs.

12 more days!!!
2 more weekends to live without him before i finally get to see him on a WEEKDAY! ((:

soon.

2007-04-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

i think my dad's a queer, weird person.
(it prob explains my odd nature.. hmmm)
here's a the scene that just happened:

he walks into my room,
the door is open while i was doin some art sketches
(why art? cause it badly needs catchin up, or no A for me!).
and dun ask me y my door is open, it just is.
and NOT because my parents haf some secret
power over me that u dun noe of,
nor is it becuase they love me so damn much
to want to see me every single time they walk
past my empty door frame.
NO.
anyway, he walks in and starts sayin... "MOB...tv. MOB...tv."
mimicking the loud monotonous voice of the guy in the advert.
to my presence, he remained taciturn.
and then sayin one more, " MOB...tv" he made his solemn and
uneventful exit.
completely ignorant to my giggles!

seriously, wad do u think of that?

haha.
there's no end to the hilarity of life.
sometimes its just one big joke after another.

2007-04-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

alright, i've set up a livejournal for the SOLE PURPOSE of peekin into the live of ppl whose profile are set under lock and key.

so troublesome la.

alright.. my heart aches... *blubbers*

15 more days!

myeuphorium.livejournal.com

2007-04-23T18:54:00.000+08:00

Love,
is a many splendored thing.
It lifts you up,
when u are down.
And holds you tight,
so you would not fall.

shuddup elvis, i hear u groaning about me spewing mushy stuff again.
kill me, i think thats the only way.
it is,
the better way. (:

2007-04-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

sixteen days.
sigh..

2007-04-22T20:23:00.000+08:00

the singapore weather is mad.

its like some spoilt kid goin on a rampage. ha.. cho. HAHA!

okok, that's not nice.

*solemn*

2007-04-22T12:48:00.000+08:00

some fotos from the arab dinner i had wid the breasties
(those new to this, "breasties" is coined, and not a typo)

let ur eyes FEAST!

(this last one was at the village hereen. slurps)

makes u agree that we ahf to LIVE to eat and not eat to live.

CHEERS to THAT!

1 more round pls.

2007-04-21T12:07:00.000+08:00

while walkin back, i saw sparrows snuggling into sand.
tossing bits into the air, creating a comfy hole of which to huddle in.

makes you think, if only life could be carefree and easy.
how one can just fly away if life gets too hard to bear,
like a sparrow does when it senses danger.

well, too bad.
who ever said being human was the best deal, they got it so wrong.

and whoever thought that world peace was possible, must haf been a patient in an asylum.

there's no such things as miracles,
just as there's no such thing as peace,
as long as george bush is the president of the US.

hypocrisy must be a trait that all ppl share,
cause i see it all over, everywhere.

wanting to go mass comm is prob one of the hardest reachin dreams thus far.
wad, a portfolio showing any record of public writing? (journalism of any sort)
wad the fuck.
and the next best things to show, to sidle into favour:
m-cee
photojournalism
poetry slam
works from a writing comp

my future is screwed for i dun even haf those basics!
talk about being thrashed before even startin a match.

the fight hasn't even started
and i'm halfway defeated!

journalist my ass.
doin sports must haf been my biggest curse in life.

i should haf been a cheetah in this life.
to run like the wind,
to be shot down to get on with the next life in line.

wadeva, i dun give a damn no more.

i shld haf gone to ngee ann mass comm
when it was offered to me on a GOLDEN PLATTER.

now i see it, sports is my ultimate weakness, my archilles heel.

where's mr lee when i need him la.

i hate my life.

2007-04-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

i've suddenly dropped into lazy mode again.

you know the feelin u get after getting hyped up to get things done
and then suddenly u're overwhelmed by this feeling of lethargy.

yea. that's wads happening to me.

i juz hope it won't come as it approaches Alvls, or even during it.
can't afford such.

i can't take it Elvis, i HAVE to talk abt him.
i haf to pour out my sorrow :
i miss him.
i keep havin this exhilarated feelin
i always get in finally being able to see him aft a long week.
then i remember he's not goin to come back till aft 19 days.
sigh. at least its passed the 3 weeks mark. that's the ONLY comfort i take in. ):

2007-04-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

when life's a bitch, u suck it up, right?
yea.

but
when ppl become bitches?

that's a really good question,
but i guess u can be a bitch urself.

u're entitled to it.

amen!

2007-04-17T19:14:00.000+08:00

ok, so according to ching lin's calendar, there's still.. 21 days!?
B***** M***** F*****!!!

sigh.

2007-04-16T20:33:00.000+08:00

oh yes:

22 days left.

(((:

2007-04-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

Sigh.
he's gone to taiwan, YET again.

three weeks and two days,
that's 23 freakin days!

i'm not sure where the ministry of defense gets their ideas,
but they def do not score with girlfrens out there.
Particularly, at this very moment, with ME. /:

i foresee a mood filled with angst, and impatience.
not that i already am like that in person.

u haf been fore warned, so live with it.

(divergence)
scored so so in block test, surprise of all surprises.
B-C-D, h1:C, GP:S, almost the same as promos
i mean its a good start for the year since i din take my block test 1
due to the bloody orientation. but i haf hope.
but not to be overly complacent,
i shan't blabber on too much.

like calv said (nag nag nag.. HAHAHA (: ), " study hard to prove you are smarter. "
geez man, i dun haf to prove it, i already am! (((:

i love him!
lets all cheers to that.

aiyo aiyo.. SO HANDSOME SEH. haha. <3

2007-04-08T17:15:00.000+08:00

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine

I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

2007-04-04T20:12:00.000+08:00

What is WITH the stagnancy of this horrific existence of a blog?!

p.s.: Expect posts of extreme inconsistency.

Signed truly,
Ching Lin
040407

2007-04-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

i watched some you tube video on the diff between how men and women bathe.
its pretty hilarious.
and wadeva they showed is pretty much true.
based on my parents. hur.

a day at vivo.
he's the collected. i'm the outraged.
i think the photo says it all. (:

2007-03-22T19:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday and today, i keep seeing newbies gettin their ncc uniforms.
even my cousin called me yest askin me wad to sew and wear to sew.

and that's when i was struck with this IMMENSE nostalgia.
i miss wearin the number 3 uniform.
i miss the tight, high waisted skirt.
i miss the starched itchy (when u start sweatin under the
sweltering heat and the starch gets to you too) collar.
i miss the boots which clicked a beat with every step one took.
i miss the beret i never managed to fully season.
i miss the ugly black socks that contrasted (or didn't) with the baring of skin after it.
i miss the black belt and its insignificance.
i missed the smell of starch!
i miss the badges upon my chest.
and finally
i miss the prestige i felt (duno y) in wearin that uniform.
i noe it sounds stupid now. but then it was my everythin. (i sound psychotic)
but we were one of the BEST land units (sadly not anymore, the other batches are USELESS!) and that rocked.
it felt good to be part of an elite.
it felt good to be part of ncc.
and i felt good wearin that uniform.
its like the moment i wore it, the posture went up and i felt i could do.. anythin.
i felt that best, and i felt i had a purpose.

i loved the feelin of being part of that great great group.
even when it got sick borin, it felt fun.

geez.
i could go on, but i'll bore you.
i'll leave u with 2 things:

THIS

AND

HAHAHAHAHA.
I LOVE NCC! (((:

2007-03-21T19:02:00.000+08:00

i always loved this song. always remember and attach it to the film where sandra bullock and nicole kidman acted togther as sisters who were born into a family of witches (they're witches too). long story.
pretty old too.
but i LOVE it. and the song of course:

"This Kiss"- Faith Hill

I don't want another heartbreak
I don't need another turn to cry
I don't want to learn the hard way
Baby, hello, oh, no, goodbye
But you got me like a rocket
Shooting straight across the sky

It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss

It's that pivotal moment
It's impossible
This kiss, this kiss (Unstoppable)
This kiss, this kiss

Cinderella said to Snow White
How does love get so off course
All I wanted was a white knight
With a good heart, soft touch, fast horse

Ride me off into the sunset
Baby, I'm forever yours

It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss

It's that pivotal moment
It's unthinkable
This kiss, this kiss (Unsinkable)
This kiss, this kiss

You can kiss me in the moonlight
On the rooftop under the sky
You can kiss me with the windows open
While the rain comes pouring inside
Kiss me in sweet slow motion
Let's let every thing slide
You got me floating, you got me flying

It's the way you love me
It's a feeling like this
It's centrifugal motion
It's perpetual bliss

It's that pivotal moment
It's subliminal
This kiss, this kiss (It's Criminal)
This kiss, this kiss (less)

2007-03-21T18:32:00.000+08:00

you noe, i actually don't MIND havin block test.
i don't mind studyin.
i dun even mind gettin back results, even when the anxiety build up gets too great.
BUT wad i really hate?
is the fact that the results will later come in the form of a results slip.
and THAT's the real sick thing about education.

even if the results are good (which i've already assured myself that this time it won't be), one would be able to find fault with that slip of paper.
its like NOTHING can be right about it.

imagine you get 76/80 (sorry the top girl's promo results just stuck to my head the moment i heard it) for your A level points, and then u tell urself, "good job!" and then "but where's the other 4 ponits?" and then u'd try to kick urself in the shin (which u can't by the way) for not scorin a full marks when u COULD.

see?
when can results slips ever be good?
when it (the results) comes with the exam/test paper itself. that's when its good.
where u can identify ALL ur tinsy winsy mistakes and make up big excuses for them.
but results are NEVER good when they come together, like a gang of hooligans, bent on terrorising you out of ur skin.
and all they show are digits and grades. and remarks.
like do we really need the comments on our behaviour(?), compliments are sufficient thank you.

just watched some disney princesses video.
and who would've guesses, snow white's dutch! haha. i saw a snippet of her wearing those holland clogs and tattered clothes.
to think about it the only thing i remembered abt her was white, round, red, blue and black.
with twittering birds flying about her and little animals scuttling all around her.
hmmm.

and elvis, u say i shld take princess jasmine.
i still like aurora.
but aladdin is CUTE. so not much of a teaser and mockery to me.haha. and ha ha to you too!
but so is the prince in sleeping beauty(cute), wadeva his name is...

2007-03-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

i don't know y i always manage to find somethin
to distract myself during a test week.

must be a talent.

2007-03-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

i think she is BEYOND being the cutest dog on planet earth.
she's my darlin and i love her FOREVERMORE~!

2007-03-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

what do you do when you realise your life isn't as square and simple as you once hoped?
there ain't no such bloody thing as luck., you can count on THAT.

2007-03-04T14:37:00.000+08:00

This is what camera shots fall short off.
cheers to the neoprint machine's ability to make
one appear CUTE and PRETTY all in ONE PIC!
oh yes, and who can forget: the excuse to act chi-nah. :D

2007-03-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

suspense packed day it WAS!

though there was this sense of detachment at not being part of the whole "receivin my results today" thing, i'm pretty grateful i din haf to suffer the anxiety that soon.
that's a retainees cowardice for you.
"once bitten, twice shy", takes that phrase to a whole new level don't you think?

mixed results from different mix of people.
i haf some frens scoring a fantastic 4 As to others scoring C-D-E.
such a polarised range leaves me speechless, and makes me come to this realisation... you never know wad to expect.
i duno wad to expect from myself!

i'm scared and traumatised, leaving me blocked, and helplessly starin at each of my fren's results, and wondering, " would mine be that? or that? or that?"
and the more i stare, the more mixed my emotions get, until a personal hall of A level result recipients occupy my head crying and cheering, till the pressure of their voices pound against my skull in a rhythm that beats to the time of "GET those A-s! STU-DY NOW!"

and then i stare at a wall wishing i was back in my mother's womb, where innocence and naivety were my key attributes. and while in there, the only thoughts i entertained, was the pleasant need to kick my mum on her uterus walls. * thump thump!

no point tryin to rant my way out. that's suppose to be wad ELVIS does best.
A levels, here i come.
bring on ur worst, i'll be right here,
to Take- You- ON!.
(i'll be getting those A-s, you just WAIT.)

2007-02-26T18:17:00.000+08:00

just got coloured contacts: and hazel look pretty ok! (surprised)
i ordered ROMANTIC purple.... :S would that be ODD??
or would groovy green be a better choice? it IS darker than the purple one... oh dear.
but pretty happy with the hazel coloured contacts turn out. (:
...
:D

its 2 more days till i catch my GLIMPSE of calvin in a week..
and 4 more days till friday when i can FINALLY see him for the weekend.
somethin i haven done since the CNY break.

sobs. i feel deprived.
and doin countdown 1year and 3 months into his service period? that's somethin i've nver heard of and never thought i'd be doin.

4 DAYS!~

2007-02-21T18:55:00.000+08:00

For him. For me. For us. For love. <3
(it's hand made roses by the way. :P)

2007-02-19T09:54:00.000+08:00

pics of CVD:

our Food section.
our Car wash section.
wad u see here is MERELY a fiction of your imaginiation.

through the course of the day...
(that's madeline and debbie)
this is only ONE part of it.
now do u regret not comin?! /:
the work reprieve moment.
sulkers. :D
cheryl's art work of the day.
pack up. bun leftovers.
this is wad was THERE. missin few here and there.
home bound.

wad pictures i haf is not enough to describe that day cause there was MUCH MUCH more. like the live band by our "sch-grown" band playin "supernova" or is it "supanova" i duno. whichever, based on their pronounciation. but they achieved champions in some competetion.
that's YJC for YOU! (:

go on elvis. get lost and go to NYJ. just look at wad ur missin.
underdogs are in. (((:

2007-02-19T09:40:00.000+08:00

WAS browsin through old posts from a previous blog, and here's wad i dug up! haha
(excuse the typical girl's sch slang that might come wid it. ) :

' woohoo. castaway-greenday-. good song. as in u can bounce away on it kinda good song. everytime listen to it, haf this feelin of exhiliration and start jumpin arnd. it takes all mental strength to restrain myself when i'm in the bus fmr bouncin frm cahir to chair doin the head bang... anyway...

i fell of my bike on my way home aft the triathlon (sat). haha. (i mean at least it was aft.) and received this huge, oversized, and overwhelming blue black which is causing serious pain (exaggeration) to my leg. oh ho. was goin to sleep and u noe like legs were crossed near the ankles... i hit the sensitive point (not the.. pls arh), and kinda continued doin that, sorta like a massage?(hahaha) anyway. its turned a sickly reddish-brown. and its still huge.

speakin of colour, had chem-bio prac today, which i wouldn't rate as fantastic, but would haf to do. at the end of the lesson, attempted to swap the potato strips in 2 diff petri-dishes and see the reaction (*not suppose to do that). mrs boey eyed my attempt and came up to me makin various noises between a grunt, tsk, and a whine. obviously came to the conclusion that i din want to hear more of the despicably irritating noise and decided to swap them back to their originals. its would haf been excitin though, to see the turgidness and the flaccidity of the potato strips being acted out. oh and i mixed up "crenation" which was suppose to be descibin a body cell not a damn plant cell.

goin back to last night. i was lying on my bed... facin the pillow, readin a book when i heard a buzzing noise overhead-- and then it stopped. "a beetle, nothin more" so went on reading. it started again.."beetle flyin, nothin more".. continued reading. the whole process continued until finally i couldn't take the buzzing no more and decided to save the beetle from its courageous but futile attempts to get out, and make its simply possible by opening the door. however, to my horror (and really) , the beetle was the biggest, dirtest, elongated, six-legged creature i've been fearin all my sad, pathetic, life. the COCKROACH! (ok gettin too drama)well, i literally jumped out of bed--not too high, and ran over to my parents room and wailed for my dad to squish the digustin creature. KILL. he got there. but not before it made its quick and decisive attempt to escape. we couldn't find it. then he went back to the room, and i stood arnd, beatin about the corners, hopin to kill it in the process where ever it was hidin and not wantin to lie down and be the victim of a ferocious attack. true enuff, a buzzin noise was heard, and suddenly, it dropped to the floor wid a small but audiable "thud" and the horrible buzzin was back. i peeped cautiously into the small space in which i heard the noise and saw it squiggling out. i squelled for juz a second, then remembered to call my dad.. .. obviously he appears at my callin and makes a second search. this time, i handed over my weapon (an improvized whackin device) which my dad gladly took and when he spotted it, it crawled into a plastic bag. cleverah~ tryin to hide again. tragic to allow itself to be killed. i mean its life would haf been so much fun watchin a loser runnin in and out of her room. and so he squished it. so it died. so chinglin fell asleep. and had a happy nite.

there we go. a story to satisfiy the boredom in which has become a custom in our daily lives since day one.

good day. '

not bad for a 16 year old la HOR. (:

2007-02-14T17:40:00.000+08:00

its amazing how a name for a day changes the whole atmosphere.
imagine this:
"Happy Valentine's Day~!"
and suddenly u sense joy and distilled love floatin before you, around you, and *WHIFF*, you take it all in.
then an overwhelming sense of gratitude consumes your entire being.
things like these, though small and sometimes less sincere than one expects, nonethless brings out the best sensations of lurve~ in ppl.

but then again, this experience could only be said for a few ppl, cause concurrently we all live in a society that is almost "antisensitized".

but anyway,
"happy Valentine's day!"
feel the love pls, feel the LOVE! :D

2007-02-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

the COW has made her complaints
and now i have No choice but to adhere to her commands before she further spreads on, to the whole world, in a childish attempt, on how I am being petty over an issue.
and issue which is directed onto her character.

a shame she hasn't really got to that point yet.

ah the humilation of the ppl who fall trap to her obvious delusions.
i hope you haven't gotten far. i pray for the safety of your souls.
but alas, i am born free thinker. no hope of prayers there.

oh well.
lest she further rants on, on how PETTY her opponent is, i shall save her from such a desolute future.
i SHALL practice PERMANENT HYPOCRISY, if she so wishes.

that way, she gets the attention she needs and yearns(from me and her gullible frens who don't noe HALF of the story), my surrender (which really isn't one. HUR),
and of course, complete devotion and love from her boyfren,
who happens to be a knight at the round table with too much free time to spare (because Camelot is already being saved by king Arthur and his magnificent sword of valor).
a knight (i might add) who willingly participates in her childish antics of giving out sporadic, unjustified comments.

i applaud and bow to their worthless attempts.

2007-02-04T13:08:00.001+08:00

you noe, YJ use to be a really fun place?
now its just a drag.

but i'll miss this place. really.

though not as much as i do KC.

really.

2007-02-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

wow. its been a while. haha. (:

i wanted to do an entry last thursday but alas, had better things in mind and to do.

what i WANTED to say was that i was immensely touched by the presentation done by the team of students who went on the Cambodia field trip from nov-dec.
i bet everyone (well more or less everyone), was feelin all clogged up and humbled at the end of their speech which only lasted 15-20 mins.
after was lit lecture with mr. eugene sng. "what the world needs now, is love sweet love" by stacy kent, was being played in that LT. if intensifiying the emotions in the atmosphere was his main objective, he certainly achieved it.

So with the added info that my mum had previously fed me after her trip there as well(cambodia and vietnam), it all but makes me want to experience it myself.

given the time and freedom from such a hectic schedule by the end of this year, would i finally be able to pack my bag and head down there for some well needed update on one of SEasia's rich history on the ruthless savagery of mankind.

some influences of "heart of darkness" right there.

i can't believe that the syllabus this year has made all our texts an open book one.
omg i jus realised we haven even started on "the great gatsby"

open book they may be, and a HINDERANCE they most certainly are! (as constantly highlighted by mr.spencer)
which i think is pretty true considerin i score better for my unseens then i do for my text.
which is ludicrous in my opinion.
y, i should be scoring high marks for ALL dammit!
i dun give a shit if my maths was a kiss ass failure. My lit results HAS to be GRADE A (and beyond!) if that was possible.
if i want journalism, i'll HAVE IT.

oh help.

2007-01-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

damn sinus and its effects on me.
i've been livin my days (and nights) in a groggy state with perpetual blocked nazal cavity.

a personal hell.

2007-01-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

i'll tell u wads the life.

fourmer d' ambert and caviar on table water crackers.
snail shaped turkey sausages and wheat bread.

THAT's the life. *slurps.

2007-01-21T12:09:00.000+08:00

its inane how i find MULTIPLE piercings disgustin yet revel in the thought of gettin an eyebrow piercin.

too punkish?
i noe.
could it be i'm goin back to my secondary sch fashion??

THE HORROR.

2007-01-21T11:27:00.000+08:00

ok.
its either my intestine is twisted,
my intestine is twisted,
or its twisted.

cause its hurtin like hell since mornin aft i've completed my mornin routine.

its the area on the right of my abdomen so wad else can i deduce frm that???

the last remainin hours before i went to bed was spent at calvin's place watchin the pirated version of saw3.cringing, gaspin and spasmically moving my hand up and down before my face in the futile attempt to block out the grotesque images on the computer screen (yea, was watchin it on the com).
i have therefore come to the conclusion that it's not AS nice as the very first. hur.
its like the suspense just depletes as the movie unfolds.
like all the rest, it starts with the sickening portrayal of several murders. of course with the inclusion of HOW the murders went abt. how could anyone, EVER, exclude that.
-actually if u think abt it, they aren't actually murders. just seeds of terror to be planted in a person in an attempt to change them.
i can't stand the fact that all three movies in the series of Saw is so aptly twisted in plot like the "twisted productions" that made them.
like whats up with the explicit irony of it? (enough irony! i've been hearin it for three YEARS from a hairy Caucasian man with a boomin voice and a tenancy to viciously abuse himself and verbally abuse young innocuous ppl- mr. Spencer if that wasn't obvious enuff with "hairy Caucasian")

OH NO! i think my bird is being bullied by rowdy stray birds! (runs off to do a check)

alright he's fine.

so yea. basically it just proves Conrads theory that humans are all savages, even when coated by layers and layer of civility. (and this i refer to the SAW movies, and NOT Spencer.)
because despite the gruesomeness of what we see before us when we watch SAW, or any other disturbing films for that matter, we are INFINITELY drawn to it.
repeatedly sought it out to see it over again.
even if one can't contain the substances that churn in their bottomless pit of a stomach to produce geysers. we are who we are, and have wad is quoted from 'Heart of Darkness',
"the FACINATION of the ABOMINATION."

and i've decided that yjc is a good place to be in.
no seriously.
SERIOUSLY!
haha.

alright i'll shuddup and get some work done.

2007-01-17T15:14:00.000+08:00

CVD (its a modified carnival) at YJC
pasa malam style!

come down on 10th feb
open from 2-9pm.

tickets sellin at $10.
contact me if u want to GO!!!

2007-01-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

shit. can't believe i'm nineteen this year.
isn't time passin a tad TOO fast?
wasn't it just july last year that i celebrated my 18th birthday?
and i still remember clearly,
the ambience,
the food,
the round carnation.
wad happened between
mature eighteen
to becoming a naggy nineteen.

STOP!!!
i'm not ready to go on just yet!

i dun even feel mature enuff to act my age.
oh pls, time... spare me. *sigh

plus, its just 6 months to my birthday.
dun give the same crap that its STILL 6 months, very LONG.
u tell me wad happened 6 months before, and if u can tell me one small detail, i'll tell u,
"yea wad, 6 months very long rite."

did i mention that i DREAD artlitgeogmaths? yea. bane to my existence they are, artlitgeogmaths.
screw it.

i think of Alvls and my heart goes "thumpity thump"
i think of uni, and my heart soars.
i think of wad course i wld take and my heart does a spin.
if i think anymore,
i think i'll be dead tired to live forevermore.

2007-01-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

i think my mum's got some serious photographic genes that should be considered a talent. haha
check this OUT:

expressive. hur hur.

2007-01-05T20:13:00.000+08:00

no block test.
did i hear u say.. NO BLOCK TEST!?!?

hah ha,

NO BLOCK TEST!!!
woots! (((((:

2006-12-31T09:47:00.000+08:00

banner painting was a success for the houses!
never will u see unity of the houses again from that day forth cause from then, it'll be back to the old competition. *yawn
pictures of banners!!! ( and i feel lke touchin up the rodney one a little further...)

our hardwork was paid off with painted fingers.
"oh, but it was no sweat... " HAHA my ass.

2006-12-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

you noe, i just realised i become such a drag when i talk to guys.
(with the exception of calv, cause he's become a part of me i dun see him as a completely diff being) maybe u don't notice, but i just did.
i mean i always knew that i get shy and awkward.
but haf u ever noticed that i stutter, for even that slightest bit?
its for every guy i meet for that first time or any guy i treat as an acquaintance.
and for goodness sake i sometimes i dun even haf to LIKE that guy!
its really absurd i sometimes want to kick and slap myself in the head.
but alas, my foot couldn't reach my head and if i keep slappin my head real hard, i won't be able to pass my As by the end of nxt year.
sometimes it could even be guys i DO noe, treat more than just acquaintance, but just don't always talk to... and AGAIN i fail myself in the "appear cool" department.

i won't even attempt to excuse myself by sayin i've been in a girl's sch pratically my whole life, cause i was pretty active in NCC, and i DID, if i had any choice at all, interact with all sorts of guys, from the weird, to the cute, to the practically kick ass irritating kind.

of course, the only way to hide my stutter or shyness, is the practical way of shutting up.
but wad do i get for putting up that brave front?
a reputation for being dao and perhaps... antisocial?
for one thing, i am NOT anti social, just selective. and even if i wanted to SAY somethin to someone, i'd haf to decide WHAT to say cause most of the times, i'm very attuned to what LEVEL of conversation would actually interest the other party.

so u can see, my life is a hard one, if not one that is hilarious.

i can't think of a possible cause of it, so let me just leave it on this note,
that i do try to come across as friendly. (its not hard for me, its just that ppl misinterpret it, or think it comes out comically fake)
if u can't appreciate it, then help me. ( that was a desperate call by the way/:)

------------
i went to bishan library today to do art research.
that place was like a TREASURE TROVE.
it held all the information that i desperately needed, and EVERYTHIN, was on the same shelf, RIGHT BESIDE EACH OTHER!!!

the minute i saw the word "shoes" i scrambled and grabbed at the books.
it wasn't as if anyone was snatching them away from me, but it was that few seconds of complete triumphant joy when i saw them, that i just COULDN'T contain the excitement in me that i just HAD to haf them all.
i chucked a total of 7 books into my arms, 3 of which were gigantors an almost skipped to those flat benches near the shelves, following which i dumped them unceremoniously onto.
alas, i picked out only 5:

My art theme is "shoes"
if u haven't already guessed.
but for now. i'm a happy girl. so until i get over the joy and the fact that i haf to start drawin wadever i SEE in the books starts seepin into me, let me enjoy a moment of peace.

oh wait.
the fact has ALREADY seeped it.
fuck it.

2006-12-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

i suddenly haf this soft spot for Rodney house. very sudden, very random, and it will not happen again.

very random... HAHA.
we rock la.

2006-12-26T19:12:00.000+08:00

i take it all back.

lee dong wook and joo ji hoon are NOT my fav actors anymore.

Cho Seung Woo, is THE BEST thus far.
proving by winning Best Actor at the 2005 Grand Bell Awards. and being presented with a Best Actor award in the foreign film category of China's Hundred Flowers Awards.
His acting prowess can DEFINITELY be proven by movies like "The classic" and "Marathon"
and he's got charm. though at times i think he looks a little too old for his age (he's 26), but nonetheless, a very good actor indeed! (:

but ok ok, lee dong wook still looks hand-some. and is still my "look real good" actor.
hur hur.

2006-12-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

i realised that i havent taken any fotos of christmas, durin the 24th and 25th the 2 nost special days of the season.

oh wells. /:

"don't you know its christmas time of year~"
i watched love actually and cried. jeez.
could i get any more emotional than that?
(even i shake my head in wonder)

both pics were christmas trees taken in korea.
and then u gotta think, why doesn't singapore haf decorations such as these.
oh right.
because we spend more money on attracting investments into our country,
to ensure the safety of economy, years YEARS AHEAD.
what happened to livin for the moment.

and i haf to complain that "girl's out loud" is possibly one of the worst series i haf chanced upon.
perhaps even worst than the one paris and nicole has.
at least PnN allows me to laugh at the stupidity of their antics and their bimboism may sometimes come across as cute.
but girl's out loud is made of matter entirely different consistin of an overload of sarcasm, wit, and girls who act chio.
so if u think abt it, it all adds up to show that famous bloggers are... sad, sorry girls, whom don't look good and therefore raise popularity for themselves on their online "diaries".
no wonder dawn yang gets the title of "the most beautiful blogger"
not because she really is pretty (which she is, we must all admit that whether we want to rip her apart, or hope to kill her with unsubstantiated rumours), but because she competes with bloggers who dwell way below average in the "i am pretty" scale.
i'm not a fan of any, but at least dawn has kept within safe zone. where if and when there is need to make any written verbal attack, she'd let her manager do that for her ( hua yi hao post card).
her blog says NOTHIN to enhance her literary prowess and prove any form of intelligence in her, but only serves to diminish the reputation of being an EX RJ student.

back to the topic on christmas.
i din bring the cam out on christmas date with calv.. *sobs hysterically
but we enjoyed food from Village at hereen.
then travelled to suntec to check some ps games
then to gelare to eat long forgotten ice cream.
and then back to cine to watch "curse of the golden flower" showing servants with squashed lower boobs, bouncing up and down.
with all that hoo ha on the appearance of flashing half boobs in the tabloids,
i'd say men these days are gettin a little too squeamish over such a small display.
i vote for a change in fashion to be as it was before. To give guys out there a real eye popper everywhere we girls go.
that way, when women wear somethin much less than the usual revealin top, nothin can be compared to painfully squashed lower boobs that add a tantalizing touch to an average A cup chested woman.

One of the best presents ( in our almost TWENTY months of BLISS together-- with no interruptions inbetween by the way) ( take THAT!),
from THE BEST MAN i noe and love.
woots! :DDDDDD

did i say i love him unconditionally?(:

liying, get over it. he's MINE. hahaha! (((:

2006-12-23T16:55:00.000+08:00

it was the christmas gatherin at ting's place on an early day of the season on 22 dec.
nonetheless, the spirit was there (with us girls anyway).
the guys that few of us had with us, were manhandled and used as camera props.
delightfully thrifty of us. saved us the expense of high end camera stands.

potlucked our way through the night with a 90dollar turkey ( do i hear ppl say there are worse out there? cause i dun give a live fuck, cause i say that it's still darn ex)
which we din even consume fully, salad ("homemade?" koleslaw with somehow a nicer tastin sauce besides tartar), mushrooms of 2 diff kinds, ham, chicken popcorn, pasta, chips, mashed potatoes, MANGO CAKE -left over, and RAMBUTANS and LOGANS.
haha.

too bad there weren't christmas carolin, cause that would haf been stupendously fun.
so the rest were talkin... and talkin ... and TALKIN. and camwhorin. and talkin.

sometimes i really duno how we girls can live with all that yakkin but i guess that happens.
that's y "the men dun get it~" *to the tune of the DBS women's card commercial.

so it ended better than i expected. *claps hands "kimchi" style

tmr is 24th~ tmr is 24th!

2006-12-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

MUMMY'S 51st BIRTHDAY! :DDDD

i think this last one is damn funny. Hur.

2006-12-19T15:04:00.000+08:00

its been rainin, and rainin, and rainin, and rainin!

but anyway, the coldness and boredom of home has forced me to carryout long awaited homework.
namely art, 20 sketches.
out of which i've yet to complete another 15.

but alas, its sketches like this, that squeeze out wad depleting drive i haf left to do the multiple more:
i'm not sayin this out of cockiness, but hell, i din expect to do this after, wad? 3 months? of stagnancy, and not touchin anythin related to graphite and wood. this is after all first out of the FIVE that i produced within a period of 3 HOURS!
if u dun applaud, i will myself! haha

orite. calv comes back in a little over an hour.
i haven seen him since the weekend i came back frm korea. *sobs

christmas parties and gatherin!!!
oooo i can't WAIT! :DDDD

2006-12-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

the girl in pink on the RIGHT, is the cutest, and prettiest little girl EVER!
she's so adorable, i already started missin her the day after i came back.
we call her godzilla, and she goes "raaar!"
*coos (((:
ignore the jacket and the scraggly look i have right there.
all i have to say is THIS guy, is prob the only one that is physically attractive there (korea).
with a TAN and a manliness abt him.

alright. i have a hell lot of work to do, and i haven tpuched anythin.

startin with,
ART = 20 good sketches to be completed
Lit = 25-30 quotes for ant, cleo and eno frm antong and cleopatra text
Maths = prelim papers to be completed ( i'm contemplatin the possiblity of not touchin this set at all)

and finally endin with,
studyin ALL subs for the up comin blocks.
i'll TRY to manage.
hold up the drive to succeed, TO THE END!

someone kill me before its too late
and i deplete myself completely.

oh yes, and i need cash. but 2 weeks is hardly enuff time to get a proper, honest job.
and i mean honest, cause i have considered bombin ben and jerry's for the terorrist
in hopes of attainin commission.
decided against it, cause i want someone to kill me, and not to kill myself.

i would also like to complain, on the minimal amt of shoppin i could carry out in korea. minimal to say, to the point where i could only buy accessories, and ONE dress that was the only thing i found suitable for the climate in singapore.
even then, it was made of PART wool.

i actually miss korea and the climate there.
and to think i hate cold places (i still do by the way)
but the air there was so much fresher.
the minute i stepped out of changi airport's slidin doors,
i was consumed by this suffocatin air that constituted of exhaust gases, slight haze, and minute vapour that clouded the air and created the illusion of a perectly clear night.
for a moment, all i did was gasp frantically in a desperate attempt to get enough air into my lungs to last, wad i thought were the last minutes of my life.
alas, the gods were showerin their contempt on me and decided to let me live longer than i would haf wanted.

apart from the climate, there's also the ppl and the availability of GOOD QUALITY FACIAL AND COSMETIC PRODUCTS!
indeed, they use water as one of their components instead of fuel for their foundation.
the healthier choice!
clap ur hands pls.
oh yes, did i mention ginseng?
*rollseyes
anyhow, fashion is a pretty integral part of society there, and with that comes a wide variety of choices.very wide.
u thought fareast was the best place to take note of latest fashion of every kind,
ur one hell of a delluded SOB.
singapore is only a fraction of wad could be.

ok i complained enuff for now.

2006-12-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

i came back frm korea yest.

it was a good. so dun ask me how it was.

2006-11-30T19:42:00.000+08:00

there is a possibility that i will finally get to learn (drumroll pls)...
taekwondo!

and guess wad?
i only gotta pay for the uni= $65

hahah! finally at long last i get to be that "wham-bang-thank you" ( no, not the obscene way u sick pigs) ma'am.

but i wonder if my body will get overly muscular if i do join it... haha. imagine it, back to ncc body!
*dead faints
HAHA, battle royale mode! hahaa *i see elvis cringing

in any case, calv WILL be at the losin end, poor guy. haha
imagine wantin to kiss me then suddenly *WHACK!*
and to think he already claims i'm strong for a girl.

he's in for some rude awakening once i'm done wid my ... er... WHITE belt. *blushes sheepishly.
i can't believe i'm about to linger with kids ranging frm ages 8-15 (both of which are the exact ages of 2 of my cousins whom are ALSO attendin the classes, 8 being the youngest and 15 being the oldest thus far. until i appear of course. HUR)

oh, and 1 of the instructor is a korean! woots.
pretty cute too ( and if calv thinks he's good lookin too, then there u haf it, he's cute. in a typical animae kinda way)

ok, that's it for excitement.
updates at a possibly, MUCH later date.
perhaps aft i come back frm Korea.

tmr, out wid calv, then sisterhood!
and then the nxt day is off off OFF to korea for me! (((:

dun kill me if i dun get u somethin frm korea, i really tried my best.
but ppl hu are def gettin it (go ahead thank the lordies,) are
1. CALVIN <3 ( a BBBIIIIGGGGGG 1 pax)
2. parents(2 pax)
3. clique (5, a possible 6 pax, haha, XY, i duno wad to make of u.)
4. breasties(2 pax)
5. calv's parents.. (n bro) (3pax)
= 14 pax.
(and possible few more to add but not listed)
oh dearie dear dear. "money fly, money go." *chants away

BUT ALAS, its all for ppl hu matter (((:.
good luck to those hu think ur one of the un named few. haha
cheerios!

2006-11-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

i just realised that this skin might be screwed. hmmm
guess i'll haf to re figure the whole thing out.

Another day.

goodnight-

2006-11-27T18:09:00.000+08:00

i see u noticed i changed my blog skin.

very observant.

i went pulau ubin yest to cycle!
i haf EVERY intention of tellin u how ExCITIN the trip was.
but, that'll haf to wait cause i need the assisstance of pictures, of WHICH i do not haf at hand rite now.

so for now,
you wait.

just 5 days till i leave singapore for korea.
and i hear that "WHAT?" no connection there??
"what?"
only 3G phones haf the bloody privilege?
slap la. now how am i suppose to contact my beloveds in singapore
huh huh huh????

i WOULD rant abt art, but i'm even tired of rantin.
i would discuss an atrocity i saw at pulau ubin, but i won't.
i'm tired. tired of the hols. tired of sitting. standing. outings. LIVING.

everythin is a "been there, done that" issue.
i'm sick.
just so sick of experiencin it all.

u want to meet.
ok we'll meet.
but we'll walk the same place, shop the same shops, eat the same stuff (and even if its somethin new, it really wouldn't matter), talk the same talk.

come to think of it "joy" could be rite. ( abt me being old)
i could very well be experiencing premature midlife crisis.
and guess wad, i haven even passed age 19.
how absurd. how insane. how irrational.

how true.

BUT alas, a person can never be too old to haf a boyfriend. (dear joy,)
love is only lost when ur dead and gone.
finding love is the few things in life that should be well appreciated and treasured.
a loved one may be gone but memories will stay forever more.

i miss calvin.

2006-11-24T21:37:00.000+08:00

"happy feet" is nice.
nice nice nice. :D
and cute.
cute cute cute. :D

2006-11-23T12:03:00.000+08:00

i think u should ALL watch "zebra marathon" or rather a zebra logo with a big word "marathon"

its a korean movie bout thi autistic man who likes zebras and chocolate cookies. his mother then trains him to be a runner and despite ppl questioning if he really likes running or is it just somethin the mother is forcing on him, the truth is that he really does love running.
he later progresses to join a marathon and hits a "sub 3" recor. that's running a total distance of 42.195km in only 2hrs 57 mins. i think it makes him the first korean amateur runner to hit sub zero let alone the first handicap who has done it.

the actor is Cho seung woo, who has also acted in the romance movie, "the classic" which has pretty good ratings too, by the way. "the classic" was directed by the same director of "my sassy girl". Though "my sassy girl" leans towards a comedy romance, "the classic" is driven towards melodrama, however both are probably on par with one another in a sense that they both achieve a beyond perfect romance story.

but just stick to watchin the zebra marathon first. i think its so endearing and heart warming. go watch go watch! (((:

2006-11-22T11:41:00.000+08:00

now i noe y so many girls in those days were crazy over him.

i think its the tight leather pants and leather everythin else that accentuates what little bad boy aura he actually has, to make it seem as if he's one, mean, kickass, bad boy hottie (of those days). they dun have much of those kind of guys in the music industry in that era. must haf been hard to come by with the borin moral code to live up to.

anyway, made him stand out. and with the absurd thrusting of his hips, geez, must haf made them (girl fans) swoon in convulsive ecstasy.

u dun see much of the same reaction from girls these days.
i guess orgasms and spasms are a natural day occurance in the todays sexually active society.

i wonder how sexually diverted we'd all be by the time it hits the 22nd century...

2006-11-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

the caption stated "Heh heh"

this was taken from a friend's (friendster)profile. i just found it too hilarious but i'll just keep it anonymous for privacy's sake.

damn right heh heh. hahaha.

2006-11-21T16:49:00.000+08:00

I've never watched "the butterfly effect".
now i think i shoud. /:

i baked cookies today!
oatmeal cinnamon and chocolate chip delight! hahaha
orite, its not complete home made.
i gott he premix betty crocker version.
but still!
i added the cinnamon as an extra personal touch by the way.
so it smells good and smells BETTER.
and i added milk too.

(i duno y i keep tellin wad i added to the concoction, must be my NEED to put my mark of originality. (: haha)

my first 12 cookies got a burnt base.
the nxt batch (for calv) turned out nice.
and the last batch which has 4 of em' shaped to resemble hershey's kisses, turned out pretty nicely as well, so all in all, i shouldn't haf wasted dough by makin 12 cookies to be used as the experimental batch. //:

nxt up on my to try list....
cakes? or brownies?
wadeva. they're botht he same to me anyway.
simply DELICIOUS.

i've borrowed korean movies to watch.
wad? can i help it if i'm becomin some korean fanatic?
i realised the shows are either really funny, or really emotional.
such polarized reaction. very tirin to react to by the way.

I'll live and I'll die for you,
steal the sun from the sky for you,
words can't say wad love can do.
I'll be there for you!

In 2 days, my man becomes a true soldier with a red beret on his head.

2006-11-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

behold,
the new and recklessly "bored with life" version improved,
CHING LIN

kill me.
i'm gona paint me nails red,
so get lost and find another job to adopt other than read this dead-to-me blog,
OR i swear, i SHALL, so help me god,
hunt u down and pinch ur nipples (guys) till u scream out in ecstatic pain,
(or in the case of girls) and shove a length of stick up a tunnel where the sun don't shine.

2006-11-17T11:58:00.000+08:00

sorry, i just couldn't resist! (((:

and damn he (calv, NO not JJH... sigh. HAHAHA jk) only returns tmr.
fuck army and their stupid guard duties.
fuck it ALL.

2006-11-16T18:42:00.000+08:00

"battle royale" is all the dialogue i've heard spewin out of elvis and cheryl since yest.
its some jap movie that came out in 2000.
something abt an entire classes of teens playing a game which involves killin each other to emerge the ultimate winner. situated on an island, off the coast of japan.
an attempt, or shld we say in more elaborate terms- SCHEME/policy, by the govt to reduce the population durin duno wad period of time.
i noe. sounds a tad corny, but there u have it.
elvis claims its psychologically disturbing.
and cheryl has noted a seeming unrest in his state of mind.
gore, bloodshed, and the plot, adds up to wad they would deem a good movie.

so here i am, interest ignited, ready to face what i've been told about, and wad my mind tells me would be a disappointment.

hilariously, elvis, being elvis, has made it a point to mentally rearrange the borin circumstances of life to that of the movie, in his head.
that is, to imgaine wad might happen shld the teens in the movie be his classmate. and then he marks down who would go down first.

ALAS he got bored with HIS class and moved on to mine.
gen and dawn, sadly, was predicted to be cut down and destroyed. (again according to elvis)
KEMP and I (heng ching lin) emerge the 2 leading competitors!
and since only one can become the winner... *waggles a finger, Drum rolls please...
I am deemed, THE SURVIVOR!
i'm THOROUGHLY disappointed in elvis's faith in my abilities to stay competitive.
he noted that kemp would immediately kill me at the very end. ( i guess its possible considerin his (kemp's) mental state of mind when its comes to winnin)
much kudos to gary DING for notin that i could very well seduce (cough) kemp as a trap AND THEN kill him in cold blooded murder.
i guess that could be possibe,
but why so little faith in my physical abilities to demolish the other player, and instead jump into the conclusion that i would use my womanly wiles to get my way?
how degrading. /:
i'm not very apt at flirtation OR seduction (for that matter).
i think its pretty obvious in my awkwardness while conversin with guys.

thank the lordies several boys/men stand out and are exceptional cases despite my inability, and amongst them (specifically the MEN), there is calv. HAHAHAHA

everythin ends wid him huh.

okay.
i'm takin my bow.

p.s: i've noted a change in my style of writin. that's bad... wrong time.
very wrong timin indeed...

he comes back TOMORROW!! (((:

2006-11-15T11:40:00.000+08:00

i forgot to add that i had achieved a small miracle in life by promotin. (:
i guess small achievements make up for a whole lot of happiness.

now i can't wait to go korea and get plenty of pictures both for art and for future memories sake.
food, snow (i really hope!), and WISHFULLY prayin for nice, pinchy, rosy cheeks. i see plenty of that in all those korean actresses! (i'm so deluded /:)

besides all that, dejection goes hand in hand with my delirium over being able to spend only 2 more weekends with calv before i leave.

oh sigh.

Suhui ( classmate) left today at 2.30 AM for U.S.! slap that bitch. haha
hopefully she'll be able to get her hands on the "i <3 NY" T shirts (quite a few of us ordered her to get it!) that i find really cute in a dorkish way.

i have nothin more better to say.
excitement of the week has died and gone away upon receivin results.
now i only dread wad nxt year might bring. no. WILL.

2006-11-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

alas my marks were better than i predicted.
esp my geog.
i thought i'd fail but i passed.
but MATHS. maths was such a disappointment.
my main promo paper saw me receivin only 47 marks. sigh.
overall saved me from disgrace. but i'm still sore abt it nonetheless.

i got first for art, now that was a Pleasant surprise.
and from a U grade (blocks) to a B(final), pretty big improvement, come on, gimme a ROUND OF APPLAUSE!

but its still to early to get all chirpy, for NXT YEAR, will be hell of a nightmare for us ALL.
art will be hectic with art history ( what?! more artists added to the insurmountable list???) and the art piece itself. maths questions to drill into my cramped up head which has reserved no space, what so ever, for any maths info. neither will there be any space given up for charity any time in the near or foreseeable future. *nods on.

then there's lit with "heart of darkness" ( i hear Sng droning on about capitalizing the title, shut up shut up!) and then there's the own wilson poems (a stack mind u. no book. papers. that tear over time. goin in sync with my mental flow of destructon of educational materials.) then the "great gatsby". added on to wad we haf now...

oh the bane of such atrocities!

i've no mood to yak any further.
now all i want is to get a job.
"step by step..." *sings the tune

2006-11-12T18:34:00.001+08:00

oh my f**king god results are tmr pls SAVE ME.

i'm havin heart palpitations.

save me.

2006-11-11T19:50:00.000+08:00

here are NG scenes tot hat drama. not sure if u'll appreciate them if u haven watched the drama. BUT no harm tryin rite.. (:

2006-11-11T19:10:00.000+08:00

u noe wad i think?
i think Lee dong wook is cuter than joo ji hoon.
yea. that's wad i think *nods furiously (((:
forget the dressing ( which LDW is still better in by the way)
or the height,
or the angles of which each of can look swoon-worthy in their on way.
see here see here.
"My Gir"l really is a pretty good drama too! really :D

omg. haha. i love it too. hahha

2006-11-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

i'm getting shivers from the impending day when we collect our results.

is it really monday???
i noe we all haf to gather at 11.30 at the audi. but how is the results gona be presented to us that way?
what would it be? slips of paper insensitively and forcibly thrown at our upturned faces that gap in horror at what might be our worst nightmare?
could that REALLY be it?

i dun want to noe.
i can't believe all this waiting and anticipating has left me feelin more isolated and afraid than i want to be.
All those ominous hints that teachers readily scatter in our direction its as if they were sowin the seeds of dread, a chore of which they merely carry out on a daily basis ( actually it probably is a daily basis thing for em'.. /: ).
fear just ignites in the bottomless pit of my gut and all but makes me want to puke my lunch out, and then puke out more remainin juices that dwell in the nooks of my stomach.

i can't take this constant hammering of the heart that stems not from excitement, nor passion, but frm the Satanic Fear of the unknown. a holocaust that could possibly wipe out all that was once worth living for.

an advancement is not wad i am seeking.
a miracle is wad i'm asking!

dun give me that
"oh dun worry la, u'll promote!" crap, or i swear i'll punch ur face.
i've got the gym workouts to substantiate. /:

2006-11-08T19:34:00.000+08:00

"i'd give u everythin, get u anythin!....
if i had the money."

he sometimes says the funniest most endearing things.
said in a tone devoid of sarcasm,
with truckloads of passion,
and finally ending in a note
filled with dejection.

all i want to do is pinch his cheeks and croon.((((:

now who's appearin like a fool... *grumbles

2006-11-08T18:34:00.000+08:00

"hanio hasay o" is HELLO
and
"come sa hamida" is THANK YOU

please, anymore useful phrases i could use when i get to Korea???
learnin language never was THIS fun.

i noe i'm only goin there for a week, but i'm damn excited. adrenaline is already bein pumped into my veins as i speak of such an awaited WEEK. and HOPEFULLY, the things aren't too expensive such that i won't be able to get some drama freebies!

and i need clarification:
"sah wah di kah" is hello in Thai for women, then wad is for men?
i forgot... /:

i can't WAIT for results.
yet i dread the inevitable.

Ten
more days till he returns. ( but he may be back on monday. just for that day!)(((:
actually i shouldn't be happy for i'd only see him for a few hours.
crap. i feel pissed again. /:

2006-11-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

i was browsing through my previous posts.
found it really odd. haha (laughs in a self conscious manner)
i duno, maybe u should try readin wad u wrote a year ago, then tell me how YOU feel.
its a really funny feeling indeed!

recently, we were coerced by Salvi ( geog teacher) into writing a team proposal for a geog weather study project that we are not even welling to carry out.
so we slog to create a perfect proposal, for the single intent of seeing it mercilessly taken away from us and claimed by people that ultimately lack all sources of creative juices.
i pity these RETCHED fools.
my brain cells are all but wasted.
such precious cells that could haf been stored for further use like As nxt year
(I HAVE TO MAKE IT. if its not a hope, its a proposition that has no 2 ways to it but ONE).

calv has lost his handphone, and i deem him now, without a doubt, the most CARELESS person in the world, next to me * glances away sheepishly
and SINCE he won't be comin out this weekend, i won't be seein him for TWO whole damn weeks.
and without a handphone, communication is all but LOST. gone. FINITO!
tsk.
exaggeration i'm sure, for i will receive a call/an sms now and then.
but to last 2 weeks?
and what of nxt week when i get the shock of my life when i receive my results. what do i do then? who do i call then?
that piece of arse shit is gona pay.
BEN and JERRY'S treat it is!
THREE SCOOPS!! ( or kenny rogers meal... hmmmm)

sigh...
11 sad and Lonely days to go. )):

2006-11-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

you haf GOT to watch the final dance scene. the climax. damn!

and here's a clearer version of the last part. sigh. nostalgia nostalgia for all that dancing that i use to dislike and dread.
makes me want to dance ballet again. /:

hot hot HOT!

2006-11-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

STEP UP is DA BOMB!!!!!
my god i loved it. love love love it. *sighs

channing was hot, of course.
and the dance moves... TO DIE FOR.

it was that good it actually ignited an interest for dancing in calv.
yea. i noe. it was THAT good.
ahhhh.. *drools.

haha. the moment he (tatum) came out, i started droolin.
calv had to reach over to wipe it away for me.
frm then on my eyes were literally GLUED to the screen.
and so was calv's.

damn it rocks.
DAMN IT ROCKS!
i dun mind watchin it again. and again. and again. and AGAIN! ((((((:

oh and did u noe there's a little mermaid 2?
nott hose little follow ups that disney does after every big movie.
those are just minor sequels which are just waste of film, and really shouldn't exist in the first place.
this mermaid 2 i think is ariel's and eric's daughter. casue she had eric's colouring.
its called "little mermaid II- return to the ocean"
or return somethin. can't remember.

its not in the movies, dun be silly.
its on dvds and vcds i think.
i saw it at the video store anyway.

a tribute to the past:

2006-11-03T17:03:00.000+08:00

i suddenly realised that BK was the only fastfood that KCNCC ( katong convent NCC company) truly enjoyed visitin.
what with the coupons and all. (yea we were a cheapskate lot.haha)
the ambience.
even when we got sick of the food, we still went back.
even studyin for the Os was done partially there as well, with none other than the familiar companions of kcncc.

sometimes i wonder why i always opt for BK as a fastfood choice despite the fries being too little,the veggies being none too fresh, and the service hardly meeting expectations.
now i noe its because it never fails to bring back fond memories of yester years, that has been engraved deeply into my memory.
i guess, i really hope by age 70, i'll still remember how excitedly we responded to the availability of BK coupons that entitled us a cheaper meal, no matter how low the price can be brought down with just the flash of ur student pass.

its hilarious how all of us managed to find peace and satisfaction in the company of each other after a long day at sch or trainin.
even when it was just minutes ago, we were STILL in the company of one another.
we never were sick of one another's presence.
we still had LOADS to yak about.
we all had each other.
and that was really all that we needed.

i guess thats why i never felt lonely durin those days, when i was w/o a boyfren.
( not that i'm sayin calv is a rebound that came from being seperated frm my best companions, i love him all the same, and liked him for no real reason right from the start other than feelin he was close to perfect. OK! mush mush~ HAHA!)

what i'm sayin is that,
friendships won't change,
only we do.
but never will i ever forget wad was borne from being part of the KCNCC company.
*sniffs and tears dramatically.
i miss them u noe? even if i've seen them jus a week ago. /:

funny how we all still laugh the way we do over and with one another despite all our diff environments. Environments that had eventually moulded us to who we are now.
despite the diff subjects, that we find easier to talk about, are contrary to those arnd us.

i guess this is really wad true friendship really is about.
i heart them all!

2006-11-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

haha, " my lovely sam soon" is damn funny. haha
i noe its a bit late for me to be watchin it, especially when its been aired ages ago, but yea.

2006-11-02T20:06:00.000+08:00

here's more:

wad u see is only on the floor. there's MORE in the bags. HAHA
cousins doin tradin.

2006-11-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

halloweeeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnn!

here are the PICS:that's jun (cousin) and me. younger one on far left, is Rong. (:
i'm dressed as a dead soldier. slit at the throat./:
IT WAS A CLEAN CUT~! :P

outside one of the houses that we visited.

yang heng ( another cousin)

got distracted by the mini coop on the way
"ROAR!!!"
the attack of the HAIRY SPIDER!
the cutest superman ever!
jack-jack! (((: so ADORABLE!!!
this girl was pretty cool. my cousin asked her if he
could take a foto with her, all she answered was "ok-" and
gave a stoned look. to match her outfit.
see how crowded it IS!
fellow comrade!

ok, for now, i can't seem to upload anymore fotos.
bloggers way of tellin me enough?
haha. nxt post nxt post!

2006-10-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

i finally went for some much deserved kayakin on saturaday.
an expedition invitation that i gladly took without much hesitation.
its been over a YEAR since i last got on a beloved kayak so this was, good!
kayaked frm pasir ris, arnd connies island and back.
actually wanted to kayak arnd pulau ubin, but when we reached the tip of it, furthest frm pasir ris shores, we decided that we shld save time ( and save a fellow kayaker frm the the throes of sea sickness should an onslaught of choppy water come our way, later in the day) and go round connie instead and made that detour.
either way, it was good since i got to witness some show manship, first hand frm fellow expedition kayakers, how the 3 star course would be like. ( the rest, four of em', are 2.5 star holders. they haven gone for their assessment and are tryin to complete their course.)
pretty cool, and i can't wait to get on with mine ( 3 star i mean).

on the WAY, we saw jelly fishes. haha. some normal ones, and some really ugly ones, that seemed to get bigger as we got closer to the home destination.

the biggest spanned 80 cm in width. and it was BROWN with yellow speckles all over.
with volumous tenticles. that were ALSO brown and speckled with yellow spots.
it looked so gross.
its could haf been one of nature's atrocities.

and i haf attained a cough and flu. NOT frm the kayakin outin but i think frm my dad, who is now currently fully cured.
no sweat. as long as this sickness doesn't kill, gymin has to go on!

tmr is halloween!
its drainin and borin. and yes i'm goin to go trick or treatin.
yes with my cousins.
yes, i dun haf a costume.
and YES, i'm quite sick of this whole event. /:

2006-10-29T10:07:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

i feel so cheena carryin on abt a korean drama.. /:
but my god. my god my GOD!!!! (((((:

woah woah,
he's 187m tall! (ooooo~...)
only 68 kg... (eeee.)
blood type A... (me too me too! hahaha)
he actually studies in Uni ( good for him.)
single status.
and he's only 24. (*claps, LOUDLY and EXCITEDLY)

haha.

2006-10-27T16:46:00.000+08:00

talk show with JJH and YEH

check out the above all goong fans.
goong is the ultimate addictive korean drama.

2006-10-27T11:19:00.000+08:00

Woah. there's a new SAW movie comin up.
like the previous 2 weren't horrific enough. . .

I WANT TO WATCH!!!

trailer -> SAW III

2006-10-25T17:49:00.000+08:00

i am really goin on am i? hahaha
do ur compare and contrast.
he hasn't changed much! dun ask me how old he was there cause i kinda cut of the date in this foto so not sure.

anyway.
sch today was so so so.... borin. /:
so borin we deemed it upon ourselves to watch princess hours... princess hours.. and MORE PRINCESS HOURS (or "Goong", dun laugh, that's korean for u. (: )~! haha
its the second time i'm watchin it, and bored of it, i'm most certainly not.(:

its the typical kind of romance drama that has u swoonin over a male character, laughing at the lead characters' antics, and conclusively havin a good time watchin their romance unfold.

one can never get too sick from too much romance really. even if ur a cynic, approachin life in the most cautious terms, and wary of all dellusionary notions.
heretics are romance makers, and if chaos is wad makes the world go round, then bring on the magic! (((:

i hereby deem the song that goes with the drama " is it love?" [or that's wad i think its called (haha)] a major hit! haha. love that love song (pun)... OH OH.. i found out its called "perhaps love" the "is it love is" the lyrics translated. HAHA. /:
Perhaps Love

this video oso includes a short preview of the drama with the back ground music of perhaps love. so enjoy! and i hope i piqued ur interest. ((:
and if u want to start watchin it, join in the addiction, and DON'T want to get the vcds/dvds, then watch it on channel U -7pm.
but i warn u, ur puttin urself through torture watchin the tv version. hur.

2006-10-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

here are MINIMAL number of fotos we (kc clique) took durin the short time i WAS wid them durin the outing.
dinner at marmalade pantry.

meet liying, juan, and sarah. HAHA
liying, juan, and sarah
now u see the how much posin changes a girl's looks.
HAHAHA
in true bimbo style, 3 of us were tryin to get
nic to join inthe photo until sarah our photographer
who was sittin opp said" ready."
and all 3 of us got SNAP into position.
though we burst into laughter right after
we realised our actions.
so this is the result AFTER.
me, geri, and eunice.
nic.
the one couldn't get in any pic so
i took this random one. haha.

2006-10-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

i noe i've been very selfless by sparin u frm all my usual nonsensical chatter, but its about time i break ur joyous moment.
allow me to show u some hilarious shots that calv and i took while wondering the isles of taka, and comin across this fantastic shop.
although the fun usually isnt in the nice clothes.
its all in the crap shit lookin stuff.
or stuff that make us look like crap shit. /:

anyway. the camera mode was accidentally placed in the shuttering kind that takes multiple shots at one click. so here's the five that it took in that "click":

and here's an absolutely adorable foto i MUST share.
NOTE:
calv ISN'T in his ugly botak hairstyle.
therefore NOTE, that he does look cute. (((:haha. cute wad.
HA.

p.s: (to liying and ting and to ALL other girls
hu are attached for that matter)
he's much more interesting and CUTE than ur
bfs put together. how bout THAT.

2006-10-17T16:03:00.000+08:00

i screwd the one content based paper that i had the most confidence in.
that doesn't bode very well for the rest now does it.

*sigh

where has complacency gone?

and where has my morale disappeared to?

oh, right.
along with my promotion.

screw yj. just screw it.

2006-10-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

i'm tired and depleted and there's nothin more i want to do than to slap someone on the face.

i'm puttin this immensely distracting blog on hold.
For touchin it will make me lose,
what little and precious amount of time,
that i have left.

cheerios, till 20/10/06

2006-10-06T19:04:00.000+08:00

oh, and korea trip has been postponed to 2-9 dec.
a quick get away after getting back a predictably not so good promo result.